Shit!!! *weird look from Ackley* Uhmm....she IT! heh...SHE IT! -- Oh Justin....
Complements of Justin on that one kids...HAHA!
Anyway - it is most definitely 3:14 A friggin M and I am awake. I was sleeping fine, but somehow my body decided to get up with checking to see what time it was...oh well - I guess I could be studying.......nahhhhh - Snood is much better..haha!
Jeez...last night - sucked. I am so sorry - love you babe...
I guess you could say I am still very emotionally involved - but hey...I'm okay with it. Sometimes, I wonder if all this crap is making me a better person - or, in times like yesterday during the exam...a bigger biz...Oh well. BSometimes I wonder if I listen to others way too much...I used to pride myself on not caring about others opinions - if you don't like me, your loss? Yet, I can't help but wonder if somethings happened the way they did because I DID care about those stupid opinions...or if I really did feel that way to begin with...Damn...I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't even have a clue. A bunch of people have asked about theatre - but let's face it kids...I'm really not that good. Yea - I'm enthusiastic as all get out...and we all know that I am not afraid to make a fool of myself - hey, it's a lot of fun! - but if it came down to the point, I'm really not that good. Sure, I'd love to see my name in lights someday...with a crowd out front just waiting to get in to see - well - me. That's been my dream since I can remember...but I guess all dreams must come to an end, huh? Eventually you wake up. See the light...and adjust or live in a pothole the rest of your life...and that's not what I want. After all the crap I've done to get this far...I'm not giving up now. Forget all that crap about dreams dying and becoming miserable - when it finally ends, you get a new dream right? Well, no matter what - I am gonna be happy with it. I refuse to do something I hate...I just can't go through life hating myself for staying somewhere or doing something that I don't want to do...that was what homework was for...yea - that's my say...
SOOOOO - I had so much energy after the exam and LaCa with Evan and Claire that I ran the loop around the hospital four times...non stop - WTF?! I think I'm going crazy. Tomorrow - there is hopes of the Y and then a night home alone relaxing because of the Hillcats game - anybody wanna part-tay? haha - yyyyeeeeeaaaaaa you know you wanna!
Waz crackin my cracka? *Bry...so white, and yet, so funny*
--Kells
Anyway - it is most definitely 3:14 A friggin M and I am awake. I was sleeping fine, but somehow my body decided to get up with checking to see what time it was...oh well - I guess I could be studying.......nahhhhh - Snood is much better..haha!
Jeez...last night - sucked. I am so sorry - love you babe...
I guess you could say I am still very emotionally involved - but hey...I'm okay with it. Sometimes, I wonder if all this crap is making me a better person - or, in times like yesterday during the exam...a bigger biz...Oh well. BSometimes I wonder if I listen to others way too much...I used to pride myself on not caring about others opinions - if you don't like me, your loss? Yet, I can't help but wonder if somethings happened the way they did because I DID care about those stupid opinions...or if I really did feel that way to begin with...Damn...I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't even have a clue. A bunch of people have asked about theatre - but let's face it kids...I'm really not that good. Yea - I'm enthusiastic as all get out...and we all know that I am not afraid to make a fool of myself - hey, it's a lot of fun! - but if it came down to the point, I'm really not that good. Sure, I'd love to see my name in lights someday...with a crowd out front just waiting to get in to see - well - me. That's been my dream since I can remember...but I guess all dreams must come to an end, huh? Eventually you wake up. See the light...and adjust or live in a pothole the rest of your life...and that's not what I want. After all the crap I've done to get this far...I'm not giving up now. Forget all that crap about dreams dying and becoming miserable - when it finally ends, you get a new dream right? Well, no matter what - I am gonna be happy with it. I refuse to do something I hate...I just can't go through life hating myself for staying somewhere or doing something that I don't want to do...that was what homework was for...yea - that's my say...
SOOOOO - I had so much energy after the exam and LaCa with Evan and Claire that I ran the loop around the hospital four times...non stop - WTF?! I think I'm going crazy. Tomorrow - there is hopes of the Y and then a night home alone relaxing because of the Hillcats game - anybody wanna part-tay? haha - yyyyeeeeeaaaaaa you know you wanna!
Waz crackin my cracka? *Bry...so white, and yet, so funny*
--Kells