"All that shimmers in this world is sure to FADE AWAY"
If you burn your hand on a hot stove once, it can be written off as ignorance, because you didn't know any better. If you keep burning your hand on the same stove, with full knowledge that you're going to continue hurting yourself MORE each time you do it, then you are stupid.
I repeatedly burned myself on the same stove for 3 & a half years, until I scorched off all the flesh on my hand, and there wasn't anything left to burn.
I hate to see someone else fall into the same downward spiral. Unfortunately, all I can do is sit back & watch things unravel. It isn't my life and I shouldn't be affected by it. However, I know in the end, I’m going to lose one of my closest friends over a stupid man. I'll be disconnected before either of us realizes it's too late to repair the damage.
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I had to scrape snow off of my car on Sunday morning after I left Rex’s house. Usually I would be annoyed. I hate this time of year because of reminders of the past that I can’t seem to escape from. But, there was something beautiful about the little white crystals covering the grass, the trees, & the buildings...Something almost peaceful/soothing.
Why is it that whenever you’re low on money, a part on car that YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW EXISTS manages to break down?!?! I had to drop $300 today on my stupid car. The pipe that goes from the engine to the muffler was so rusted that it separated. Exhaust wasn’t even going through my muffler. It was probably leaking inside. My car was so loud that it shook, so it isn’t like I could have waited until after Christmas. The mechanic said I should be getting better gas mileage now that my car won’t be smoking gasoline like a cigarette. I’m annoyed because the craziest parts on my cars always break down. Like I needed ANOTHER cost on top of the $700 I had to pay toward tuition today!!
/end rant
I heard “Shimmer” on the radio while I was driving around Christmas shopping earlier. I forgot how much I love that song. I was singing along & I couldn’t fight back the flow of tears. It’s scary how it applies to SO many aspects of my life.
I can’t wait until after Wednesday, when I’m done with school for this semester. It’s getting increasingly hard to work full time and go to school full time, 7 days a week. I never get a day off, & my mental state is being greatly affected. I’m on the verge of a breakdown because I currently don’t have time to sleep. I've also been getting migraine headaches, which is very abnormal for me.
There just aren’t enough hours in the day.
"She says that love is for fools that fall behind,
And I'm somewhere in between.
We're here and now, will we ever be again??
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away."
I repeatedly burned myself on the same stove for 3 & a half years, until I scorched off all the flesh on my hand, and there wasn't anything left to burn.
I hate to see someone else fall into the same downward spiral. Unfortunately, all I can do is sit back & watch things unravel. It isn't my life and I shouldn't be affected by it. However, I know in the end, I’m going to lose one of my closest friends over a stupid man. I'll be disconnected before either of us realizes it's too late to repair the damage.
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I had to scrape snow off of my car on Sunday morning after I left Rex’s house. Usually I would be annoyed. I hate this time of year because of reminders of the past that I can’t seem to escape from. But, there was something beautiful about the little white crystals covering the grass, the trees, & the buildings...Something almost peaceful/soothing.
Why is it that whenever you’re low on money, a part on car that YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW EXISTS manages to break down?!?! I had to drop $300 today on my stupid car. The pipe that goes from the engine to the muffler was so rusted that it separated. Exhaust wasn’t even going through my muffler. It was probably leaking inside. My car was so loud that it shook, so it isn’t like I could have waited until after Christmas. The mechanic said I should be getting better gas mileage now that my car won’t be smoking gasoline like a cigarette. I’m annoyed because the craziest parts on my cars always break down. Like I needed ANOTHER cost on top of the $700 I had to pay toward tuition today!!
/end rant
I heard “Shimmer” on the radio while I was driving around Christmas shopping earlier. I forgot how much I love that song. I was singing along & I couldn’t fight back the flow of tears. It’s scary how it applies to SO many aspects of my life.
I can’t wait until after Wednesday, when I’m done with school for this semester. It’s getting increasingly hard to work full time and go to school full time, 7 days a week. I never get a day off, & my mental state is being greatly affected. I’m on the verge of a breakdown because I currently don’t have time to sleep. I've also been getting migraine headaches, which is very abnormal for me.
There just aren’t enough hours in the day.
"She says that love is for fools that fall behind,
And I'm somewhere in between.
We're here and now, will we ever be again??
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away."