dreams

Jan 05, 2005 20:21

ok i know trac hates how we talk about our dreams all the time but last night they were pretty interesting and i remember them. they seem so real its creepy.

first dream: I made out w this kid in my english class and afterwards i gagged and washed my mouth out.

second dream: more like a replay of the night garret told me about how much i mean to him.

when i got in english today i couldnt even look at the kid who was in my dream without gagging or laughing. its not that hes a bad looking kid or anything, hes a really awesome kid but i dont know. i mean i talk to him alllll the time and we have 2 classes together and walk together before or after class. but ugh it was nasty to kiss him... in the dream of course.

the garret dream i have a lot. i wonder how he could have felt like that for over a year and not ever tell me. i would of never believed it if he told me last year. trac sam and brit heard some of what he was saying when i was on the phone and they were like "go out w him" and sometimes i wonder if i should have the day he asked me. i know it wouldnt have been fair though bc i really didnt feel the same way he did/does about me. i love him to death though and what he told me meant so much and made me feel really really good. that was the 1st time someone has ever told me that kind of stuff and it was nice to hear. which is why i dont know why i cant be attracted to him the way he is to me. if i could, i would but i cant. hes not my type i guess. i dont know. what he said has been on my mind for the longest time. and the promises i made him that night too i am keeping no matter what.

anyways i think im getting my hair dyed this weekend if i can scrape up like $60. im thinking dark dark brown w black lowlights. not for sure though. we will seeeeee

2 more days... week hasnt been so bad so far.
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