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Life sucks. Plain and simple. I haven't been this down in a long time. I took advantage of the feeling of being happy and having life go my way. I don't see a bright side anymore, and the glass has been half empty for a lengthy amount of time. I'm in love with my boyfriend, but sometimes I just get so fed up and mad at him. The sad part is, half the time, I know the things I'm getting absolutely furious over are nothing. Some don't even make sense, and because he puts up with it, makes me love him even more. But I do worry that I've pushed him too far, that one time he'll just say "We're over." We had a close encounter once, not too far back, were we almost broke up. I didn't want to, I would have die inside, but in the heat of the moment, it's almost like I challenge him to do it. To say the words. Thankfully, he knows better. He thinks I always want to be better than him, that's not the case. But when he cheated his way through an entire Anthropology class, and will probably end with a better grade, when I worked and study my ass off. Yes, I'm gonna get pissed. If he got an A and I got a C fairly, I'd be proud of him, but if he gets anything higher than a B compared to my B-, have fun convincing me not to get mad. My life and the word unfair are closely related. You won't find one without the other. Need some proof? I've got plenty. I worked at a restaurant, Archie Moores, and I loved it. The job, the people, AND the food. I got my close friend a job, and she got another friend a job and so on. Well we all went to college this past fall and now it's summer and we're back. Well the friend of my friend got her job back and is even going to start waitressing while my other friend and I (who have worked there longer) weren't taken back. I then applied at a restaurant next store to Archies, called Cabo. I got hired as a hostess! Once I told my friend, she then went and applied and got hired to... as a Buser... with more hours.... who gets tips. Neato. Want to get me started about community service and my license being suspended? I'll try to sum it up ; my boyfriend and I are idiots and chose the wrong option of paying $50 and getting our licenses suspended for a month over 25 hours of community service when we got our 1st ticket.(That's another story) Then we ended up getting another ticket (refer back to the "another story" comment) , and 50 hours of community service. SURPRISE! My license gets suspend right when I need to be driving to community service and my new job. Wondering about my boyfriends license suspension? He never got a letter, so he can still drive. That's what they call a "WTF moment". He's also started his community service, even though I apply to Goodwill two weeks ago and they have yet to get back to me. It's June 4, community service is due June 30 and I have 50 fucking hours left? Luckiest girl alive, I know. So I'm writing this to get it off my chest, to have someone feel my pain, to maybe get a pray answered, to get it out there. Shit happens, apparently, I've been on the toilet a lot lately.