stressin like what
Alright... I dont know how to explain what I am feeling right now, but its down right shitty. I should have just slept through today so I wont have to worry about anything. First set of news...the guy that declared his love for me and I refused is now engaged. Congrats to him, but seriously now, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!! Him and I would have been terrible together, but thats not the point. A friend of mine refuses to have anything to do with me when I am supposedly her best friend...encouraging as well. I love it. I can't imagine why that wouldn't excite me. I am going to lose someone important to me. I can feel it, and I can't stop it. There is just something not right about my current situation. People are yelling at me for things I haven't done. Also fun. My roommate gave a friend of mine a hickey. But the problem is, my friend is a girl. Ew! I have a presentation tomorrow and I am prepared, but don't want to do it. My short story has turned out horrible. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE???? I can't take this stress, my heart is about to choke up and stop working. I haven't the patience or the energy to deal with things right now and nothing has been going my way since I turned 22! I need to just kill myself now...make the world a better place without having to worry about me. Oh thats depressing cuz I'm sure it would be better. I dont know how else to say what I am feeling, so I hope these words are enough to let u know, Heather(my one reader).