Where the Lines begin to Blur - 16
Title: Where the Lines begin to Blur
Part: 16/?
Chapter Links: Links to all the Chapters
Author: tia_maria_616 & snowisgreat & sweetchild85
Pairing: Ville/Bam
Rating: PG - NC-17, depending on the chapter
Summary: A troublemaker and a teacher with a past meet outside of lessons for some private tutoring, but it soon becomes apparent that their subject is changing from maths to chemistry. How long can their learning last before the experiment bubbles over and someone gets burnt?
Disclaimer: Persons are a law unto themselves and sadly we cannot claim ownership rights.
Warning: Age-difference, teacher/student - relationship
A/N: This was basically started as an RP and just edited now to post it up as a story to share the fun with you. So hold on to your hats and fasten your seat-belts, this is just the beginning.
"You bet your ass it includes you as well! You're not getting out of this one that easily." Jess looked at Bam with a stern look but couldn't help smiling inside; he should have known Bam would try and take the easy way out. "Come on, let's go then." He said and gestured for the two of them to go ahead.
Ville looked over at Jess, then at Bam and afterwards walked out of the bar. Right as they were outside he reached for his cigarettes and lit one, hoping that the nicotine could calm his nerves a bit. "So uhm... Jess... what do you... think there is?" He asked, wanting to know what Jess thought was happening before he was said too much.
"Algebra?" Bam suggested, not really having anything to add in such a situation other than to try to lighten the mood. He had been hoping Jess and Ville would just talk and he could run far away, but he followed along outside all the same, not sure if he should walk with either of them or just by himself.
Seeing Ville light a smoke made Jess think that maybe that was a good idea, he needed something to calm him down a little. "What I think? Honestly Ville, I have no idea what to think," He said and flung out his arms. "I just know that unless the tone between teacher and student has changed a whole fucking lot since I finished school, something more than algebra," He shot Bam a glance, "is going on between the two of you."
"It is something more than just algebra." Ville said and nodded a bit. "It is way more than that." He took a long drag of his cigarette and looked at Bam and then at Jess and then just around the area, he didn't really want to look at any of them longer right at that moment. "We'll soon be there." He said then and reached in his pocket with a hand to get his key.
Once more feeling the younger one for not smoking, Bam could see that Ville wasn't looking at anything, or anyone for that matter. While he himself wasn't feeling that comfortable, he couldn't help but wonder what Ville was planning to say about it all, and just what Jess wanted to know for.
"I figured..." He took a last drag of his smoke and threw the butt on the side of the street. He looked at Bam who was being very quiet and he felt his big brother gene kick in again. "Hey? Bam? Look at me."
Ville took another drag of his cigarette and then threw it on the ground as they reached his apartment. "You first," He said as he unlocked the door to his place, holding the door open for the other two. "You should both know your way around." He sighed, feeling a bit uncomfortable.
Bam cast a short look at his brother before he stepped through the doorway, might as well get it over and done with. Ville's place was still as messy as ever, but as usual the sofa was free, so he sat down on one of the arms and indicated to Jess to sit.
Jess took a seat on the sofa next to where Bam sat on the arm and turned his attention to his brother. "Look Bam, I'm not gonna kill you or run off to Ape and Phil and tell them anything, okay? This whole... thing between the two of you is just freaking me out and I'd really like to know exactly how well you know each other, alright?" He fished out another cigarette, god knows he needed it, and got more comfortable. "So.... who's gonna start?"
Ville stood across from them and run a hand through his hair, looking from one to the other and just watching them for a moment. "Does anyone want something to drink?" He didn't really want to get right into it. "Jess, we... okay this started with some private lessons, because you know that Bam isn't that great when it comes to maths... and we kind of got a bit closer than just teacher and student...“ He said it very casually, at least tried to make it sound casual.
Bam watched Jess more than Ville, resting his head in his hand as he listened to Ville half explain what was going on. Maybe if Jess said he wouldn't say anything to anyone it'd be okay, but he wasn't so sure... it was his brother after all.
"No shit" Jess snorted at Ville's casual explanation. "And yeah, something to drink please, something strong." Sometimes cigarettes really weren't enough. He mused over Ville's words for a short while. "Exactly how much closer, Bam?" He turned his head and looked at Bam with raised eyebrows. He had a feeling that Bam was staying quiet because he didn't want to tell the whole truth.
Ville turned so he could walk to the kitchen and get something to drink, being glad to get away from them for a moment. He also thought about maybe giving them some privacy, but still wasn't too sure about that, did he want to leave them alone right now? "Bam, you want something too?" He asked as he got himself and Jess a nice glass of whiskey.
"Mmm, ye- No, thanks." Bam changed his mind, thinking that for once he didn't want to be stepping his foot in it, so probably drinking more wouldn't help. Instead he looked back across at Jess, the person he was used to letting in on some of what he got up to, but now he really didn't want to. "A little bit more?" He hazarded, raising an eyebrow slightly.
Jess let out a sigh. "Bam, stop pussy-footing around like that, okay? I mean it, I'm not gonna tell on you. I haven't done that since I was a teenager, I'm not gonna start again now. Spill it." He hoped that his face didn't reveal just how upset he actually was about this whole thing; it wasn't like it was every day you found out your little brother and your friend had something going on.
After drinking a bit of the alcohol first and then refilling his glass again Ville walked back out to the living room, holding the one glass out for Jess, while keeping the other for himself. "When you say that you're not going to tell on him... does that include me too?" He asked, looking curiously at Jess, he had a pretty good idea what would happen if this got public. "There wasn't that much happening, but enough to cause major problems for me." He took a sip of his drink and decided to sit down across from them.
Bam had been on the edge of saying something more, but when Ville came in he let him take over, after all as he had said, things would have more of an impact on him. How much at the end of the day would Jess really want to know?
When Ville came back into the room, Jess turned his attention away from Bam and gratefully accepted the drink. He looked at Ville in silence for a while before he spoke again. "I don't know. I wish I could say yes and mean it, but I can't and I'd rather be honest with you. I guess it depends on what you are gonna tell me." He shifted around in his seat before going on. "Look, I know Bam isn't a kid anymore and I very much doubt you've forced him to do anything he didn't want to do but god dammit Ville, you're his teacher!" He hadn't meant for the last part to come out quite as accusatory but his frustration got the better of him.
Ville rolled his eyes a bit and sighed loudly. "God, Jess... don't you think I know that? I know that I am his teacher and that whatever we do besides being student and teacher is pretty much illegal." He reached for his drink and almost downed it at once. "We just got closer a bit... and it just happened on its own. I wasn't planning on doing something with a student. He is six years younger than me... and...“ He shook his head a bit, not knowing what to say anymore.
"I am kind of… here." Bam reminded, tapping his fingers against his cheek still sat in his hand. He knew he should have not come back to Ville’s; it would have been so much easier. Maybe Ville was his brother's friend, but Jess was actually related to him, and was kinda hard to ignore if he didn't like what was going on.
"Okay, can one of you please just tell me how serious this is, like, did you fuck or what?!" Jess exclaimed when he’d had enough of their beating around the bush. "Then afterwards we can talk about what it all means, okay? I'm not gonna call the police or the principal or anyone so just relax Ville, but please, for fuck's sake, tell me what's happening!"
Ville rubbed at his eyes and set the glass down on the table, getting up to walk around the room a bit, too many things in his mind to think off to just sit there, he needed something to do. "More than once." He said after taking a deep breath, knowing he wasn't only telling his friend about it, which would have been what he wanted, having someone to talk about it to, but he also was telling the older brother of his 'lover' that they fucked, and that usually never went well and it probably wouldn't end that well in this special case.
"Happy now?" Bam added, watching Ville wandering around and trying not to think of their previous meetings in there. No, he really didn't like talking about things like this, and especially guessing the 'advice' his brother would try to give.
He sucked in a sharp breath upon hearing Ville's admission. He knew he should have expected it but the truth still hit him like a bucket of cold water and it took a few moments and a big gulp of whiskey to digest the information. "Ehm... Okay then. Wow... How long? Bam?"
Ville chewed on his lip as he watched from one to the other brother, arms crossing over his chest, kind of to not let the others that close to him in a way. He knew it was wrong and he knew that they couldn't hide it forever, but he hadn’t thought it would happen that soon that someone would find out. Looking over at Bam, Ville wanted to let him answer, Jess did clearly want him to answer that one.
Bam's gaze travelled over to Ville briefly, "Umm, I dunno... I guess about two week’s maybe? I haven't exactly been counting." He shrugged, trying to play it off as much as he could, but he was still wondering what Jess was going to say, or more why they were waiting for him to say anything anyway.
"And is that the truth? Because I swear to god if you are not being honest with me and I find out… I'll be pretty upset, let's put it that way." Bam was normally very honest with him in the things he let him in on, but he wasn't sure if he could still count on that in this case - after all, there was quite a lot at stake here.
Ville nodded a bit. "Yeah, it is... it's been going on for around two weeks, give or take a few days." He sat down again and sighed heavily. "Look, Jess... I know you probably did not expect something like that... from your friend and your brother, but it just happened, we know it's wrong, but it's..." He wasn't exactly sure if he should go on talking, but it didn't really matter now, "...it's too good to stop it."
Bam's hand slowly slipped from his chin as he heard what Ville said, he couldn't help but smile at that. He was glad Ville said it first because he wouldn't have been able to in case Ville wasn't thinking that, but in fact he was feeling the same way exactly which surprised him, but he wasn't quite sure why.
Jess held up his hands "Okay, please no details! And you are very right; I wasn't expecting this in a million years, not at all. Does anyone know?" He hoped and prayed they were gonna say no.
Ville did not say anything to the details point. "No, no one has seen us together like you did." He said and took a deeper breath, relaxing a bit at Jess's reaction. "We only meet here or are seen in school together, but everyone knows that I am officially giving him some extra maths lessons, so nobody asks any questions." He explained.
"And same goes for Ape and Phil," Bam added, looking back at his brother now, "It's just maths lessons." He nodded, as if convincing himself.
"'Kay... and just to make sure I've got it right, those math lessons aren't really math lessons, right?" He looked questioningly at the two. Now that they had finally started giving him some facts he felt himself relax a little more. Knowing what had happened made it easier to relate to it.
Ville shook his head. "No, the math lessons aren't real math lessons." He sighed a bit and stood up again to get the whole bottle of whiskey from the kitchen instead of just refilling the glass. "Well, the first one kind of was." He said as he came back, looking over at Bam and having the need again to kiss him or just touch him and be closer, but he knew he probably shouldn't do that with Jess around.
"Nobody wants to do maths really; it's too boring even for a teacher to want to do." Bam shrugged, playing with a small tear around the knee in his jeans. It was more comfortable now that Jess knew, kind of. But still it was an odd situation for him to act as he normally did around Ville.
"Well, I'm not surprised to hear that coming from you." Jess said, directed at Bam as he reached for the whiskey bottle and poured some in his glass again. Playing with the glass, he sat for a while and observed the golden-brown liquid lick up the sides and tried to make some sense out of the evening's revelation. Even though the cards were now on the table, he still wasn't any closer to figuring out how he felt about it.
Ville poured himself another glass of whiskey and had a sip of it, looking over at Bam. "You sure you don't want anything to drink?" He asked, not knowing how long they would sit there together and how the night would end.
"Well... yeah, go on then." Now they had come out with it, he guessed he didn't need to worry about keeping a check on what he said, and it would probably make the evening go better if they all had a drink.
Taking his eyes from the drink in his hands, Jess let out a sigh before he started speaking again. "Ville, I... I've gotta ask you something... and I hate doing it but... I just have to man, even though you are my friend but fuck, Bam is my brother and... yeah." He took a deep breath before he lifted his eyes to Ville's. "Is Bam the first of your students that you... you know... like? ...with?"
Ville took a deep breath and exhaled it slowly as Jess asked him that. He knew sooner or later that the question would come up. "Uhm, yeah, he is the first. I don't usually go for students." He looked at Jess, wanting him to see that he was serious about it and not making up a lie. "He is just... I don't know, it just happened, something was just right." He shrugged a bit, not really knowing how he should explain it.
Bam wasn't going to say anything to that, he just watched Ville, trying to hold in his smile. He knew he had often joked about things like that with Ville, but he hadn't really ever asked specific details about the past people in his life, just like Ville didn't know about all of his. To hear him say for sure that Bam was the only student he had done anything with made him feel eased, but he hadn't been aware he had any doubts before.
Releasing a breath he hadn't realised he was holding, Jess muttered a "Thank god!" He hadn't expected Ville to say anything else and he had felt really bad about asking but he felt he *had* to; just for ease of mind. "Okay, so you two have been fucking each other for a couple of weeks during math lessons, nobody knows, you are both aware of how illegal it is, and you have no intention of stopping. Does that sum it up? Or is there anything else I should know?"
"That kinda sums it up, yes." Ville didn't really like the way Jess said it all, but he was right. "I don't think there is more you need to know. You didn't want details, right?" He asked and looked at Jess, drinking some more whiskey. "Oh and Bam... you know where you can find glasses."
"Oh, yeah." Bam nodded, quickly walking out of the room and into the kitchen, hoping that he could get away from that part of the conversation. He felt weird whenever the word illegal came up, he knew it was wrong and everything, but still the idea was something of a thrill to him. Though it wasn't the only reason he was doing what he was, it was still a part of it.
When Bam had left the room, Jess shook his head. "For fuck's sake Ville..." He said in a low voice. "What the hell are you thinking?! You're not only putting your job on the line here, but you might actually go to jail if this gets out!" He looked at his friend with a pleading look, almost hoping Ville was gonna break out in laughter and tell him it was all a bad attempt at making a joke.
Ville rested his elbows on his knees, putting his head on his hands and sighing deeply. "I know." He ran one hand through his hair and shortly looked up at Jess before looking down again. "It should have never happened, but I can't change it anymore."
Just managing to hear their conversation from in the kitchen, Bam slowed down getting a glass out of the cupboard, listening carefully for what his brother and Ville said while he was gone, but trying to not make it obvious what he was doing.
Seeing how Ville seemed truly defeated and didn't even try and put up a fight, just admitted everything, made Jess calm down. "You're very right it shouldn't..." He emptied his glass a second time. "And of all the boys in that school, you had to go for my little brother..." Again he shook his head but he couldn't quite keep his lips from curling into a small smile when he thought of how twisted the whole thing was.
"I didn't know it was your brother." Ville said and just had to laugh at that, knowing it would have probably also happened if he would have known that the two were related. "And I guess you know now why last Saturday was all strange. I freaked out for a moment when I saw Bam at your place."
Hearing the conversation becoming a little easier, Bam shut the cupboard and left the kitchen, sitting properly on the sofa instead since he was a little happier to be near his brother now.
When Bam sat down, a thought suddenly hit Jess and he quickly turned his head. "Fuck! Does this mean my baby brother is gay?!" He stared at Bam with eyes the size of tea cups. Until now he had been so focused on the teacher/student aspect that he hadn't even given it a second thought that they were actually both guys.
Ville couldn't help himself now he just had to laugh at that question. He didn't know how much the two brothers knew of each other, but it seemed like they still had some secrets. Sitting up a bit more again and taking another sip of whiskey he looked over at both of them and was curious now how this would go on.
"Does this mean my brother is as blind as a bat?" Bam countered, staring back at Jess. Surely he must have noticed, or at least suspected something before. It wasn't like Bam hid what he got up to, but he guessed that he never usually said specifically whether he was with a girl or a guy, just left it up for interpretation.
Jess burst out laughing. "I guess it does yes, because I definitely hadn't seen that one coming! My god, Bam! Do Ape and Phil know?" He managed to croak out between laughs.
"You're not as close as I would have thought, or does Bam just not talk much about his life?" Ville asked as he looked from one to the other and lit a cigarette, enjoying the moment.
Bam shrugged a little, looking from Jess to Ville and smiling himself as he leant forward to pour himself a drink. "Ape and Phil are even less likely to know than you were." He said to his brother, not too fussed about Jess knowing really, if he wouldn't use it against him. "And I don't know how Jess never worked it out." He added, shaking his head at Ville.
Offering Ville a cigarette and then lighting one himself, Jess shrugged and cast a look at Bam. "I guess I maybe should have put two and two together sooner - meaning, before it was written in neon letters before my eyes! - but I just didn't think that my skater punk brother might be into guys too." He grinned at Bam and enjoyed that the mood in the room had changed now.
Ville moved so he was sitting crossed legged, he would love to join the brothers on the other couch, but stayed at a distance just in case, he didn't want Jess to get uncomfortable if he shouldn't be able to keep his fingers away from Bam. "What about your sexuality, Jess, since we discussed Bam's and my current... relationship."
Bam stuck his tongue out at Jess as Ville spoke, then sipped from his glass innocently as he looked over at Ville again, thinking it was just what they needed to turn the tables on his brother after the evening they'd had so far.
He wasn't really surprised at Ville's question but he wasn't sure what to answer. He smiled and watched the smoke rise from the tip of his cigarette before he spoke. "Well... let's just say that Deron and I do more than just play in the same band occasionally... I *do* like girls too though," He added and looked at Bam. "The women I've brought home have been real girlfriends, not just some cover-ups."
"I knew that there was something between you and Deron, from just watching the way you two act around each other." Ville chuckled softly and took a drag of his cigarette with a smirk on his face. "Why didn't you really tell me about that? I only hear about your stories with girls."
"Because he doesn't want to squeal and get all girly on you." Bam smirked, wondering why his brother in that case had never said anything, but then he guessed neither had he.
"Shut up you little brat," Jess laughed and slapped Bam's leg. "Uhm... I don't know? I guess it never really came up? I mean, it's not like we're together-together, it's just... yeah, when none of us are in a relationship, we kinda... "Take care of each other", you might say." He had actually never thought more closely about what it was him and Deron were doing, they just... did it. "It's not like we're hiding it, we're just not talking about it openly, you know?"
"You could have still told me about it." Ville said laughing a bit. "I mean... I tell you who I am fucking." He stubbed out his cigarette and reached for his glass again. "Well, you know... just not... that thing..." He trailed off and looked over at Bam, winking at him.
"Why Ville, how many others are you fucking?" Bam twisted Ville's words, raising an eyebrow as he looked from Jess over to Ville on the other side from them and drank his drink.
Jess had been just about to say something to Ville but stopped himself when he heard Bam's question. This was all so new to him and he realised he had no idea if Ville and Bam were actually in a relationship or if it was more casual and so he didn't know if Bam's question was meant as a joke or if he was serious.
"Oh come on, Bam, you should know that." Ville rolled his eyes. "We talked about that and I told you that you're the only one at the moment and I don't wanna change that." Suddenly Ville remembered that Jess was in the room too and decided to better shut up and not blabber out too much about what exactly was going on between them.
"Yeah, yeah, okay." Bam waved his hand a little in the air. "So anyway, you've been hiding from us all, Jessy-pie." Bam made his voice go all childish over his nickname, grinning at his brother over his glass.
Jess grimaced at hearing his old nickname from his childhood coming from Bam. "Well, it seems to me that I haven't hidden anything you haven't done yourself, baby bro." He shot back with a smirk, emphasising the ‘baby’. "I sure haven't heard you talking about any boyfriends at the dinner table."
"You two are too cute together, but I need to leave you now for bit... all that alcohol wants out of my body now." Ville stood up with a soft laugh, needing to go to the toilet and thinking the two might want a few minutes alone.
Watching as Ville left, Bam turned back to Jess once again. "Maybe I haven't been talking because there haven't been any to talk about? Did you think of that?" He asked, wondering why everything was coming up between them when they normally hardly talked of such things.
"Yeah, cute is exactly what we are." Jess chuckled as Ville left. "Is Ville your first?" He asked in surprise at Bam's words. Seemed like the surprises just kept on coming tonight and he thanked the lord for cigarettes and whiskey; apparently tonight was a night for revealing secrets.
"Cute and a bit chaotic." Ville called as he went away, taking longer than he normally would, because he wanted to give them some time to talk about some things if there was anything they wanted to talk about in private. As he washed his hands after taking a piss he checked his appearance in the mirror and decided that he was still looking good enough, even with the eyeliner that was a bit smudged.
Bam made a face at his brother, not so keen now to explain what he had said. "Is Ville my first what?" He paused, unsure what to say without saying too much, "Not a first time..." The bottom of his glass was starting to look far more interesting as the seconds went by.
Jess couldn't help but smile when he saw Bam go all shy on him and he put his hand on his brother's knee. "So he's not the first guy you're with? Is he your first uhm... I'm not sure what you two actually have going here... relationship?"
Right as Ville wanted to walk back into the living room, he heard Jess ask Bam about the thing they had and since he himself wasn't too sure about it, he stayed in the hallway silently and listened to their conversation, wanting to know what Bam would tell Jess.
Bam looked over at the other side of Ville's living room as he paused. "I'm not so sure as he's a first for that either. And you must know me a little; I don't do that well anyway." He shrugged, flicking his eyes over in the direction he knew Ville would arrive back from soon.
"So you two are just fucking then? There's nothing more serious than that?" Jess asked, even though he knew that it had to be something deeper than casual sex; otherwise Bam wouldn't have acted like that earlier. He hoped that his question might make Bam admit it but he wasn't too sure.
So Bam also wasn't really sure what they were. Ville took a deeper breath as he thought about it and decided to wait one more time for Bam's answer and then he would walk back into the living room to join them again.
"I wa-" Bam stopped, changing tack, "Can we just drop it now? Thanks." He answered for his brother, there was no point in talking about that with Jess when he didn't know himself, and he could bet Ville would come out of the bathroom just as he said anything weird.
"Sure, maybe we can talk about it some other place -" He looked around the room "_-that isn't Ville's. If you feel like it, you know. More to drink?" He asked as he reached for the bottle on the table. He could see why maybe Bam didn't feel comfortable talking about it when Ville could come back in any moment.
"Did you miss me?" Ville asked as he was walking back into the living room, trying to sound as if he didn't just listen to their conversation and deciding to join them on the sofa. "So what should we do with the rest of the night? Reveal some more secrets now that we're at it?"
Bam's eyes jumped up to watch Ville coming into the room again, he hadn't heard the bathroom door open, but they had been a little distracted. "Oh I missed you alright." Bam grinned, holding out his glass for Jess to refill, "Depends who wants to tell secrets, doesn't it?"
Filling all three glasses again, Jess grinned at Ville. "It seems like this night is all about revealing secrets, doesn't it? You two ding each other, and me coming out to my brot-" Jess stopped himself and spun around on the couch to face Ville. "You fucker! You *know* about me being bi! You just wanted me to admit it here!" He burst out and caught Ville in a wrestling grip.
"Yes, Bam... I want you to reveal your secrets; I already know some of Jess'." Ville laughed as Jess grabbed him and playfully hit his shoulder. "Sure I did know about it... how could I not know?" He winked at the older brother and then looked over at Bam.
Bam watched the two of them, thinking how weird it actually was for them to be friends, his brother and his teacher. "How could you not know what?" He frowned, realising he was missing out on something. "I don't think it's my secrets we need to learn." He drank slowly again from his glass, leaning back into the sofa.
"Uhm... Ville?" Jess asked as he let go of the hold. It wasn't until now that he suddenly realised that Bam might not be too thrilled to learn about the way they met. "You care to explain that one?"
Ville sat up straighter as Jess let go of him and reached for his newly filled glass, having a sip of it. "Hmmm... I am not sure if I really want to explain that." He laughed a bit and shook his head, really not wanting to tell Bam that he almost fucked with his brother. "I thought we wanted to forget about that."
Bam watched between the two of them, trying to guess at what they could be talking of. "You don't... Did you walk in on something, or... what?" He hazarded, not liking being clueless at all, and even less the way neither of them wanted to explain.
"I had forgotten about it until now." Slowly taking another sip of his whiskey, Jess' head was working on overtime trying to figure out how to handle this one. Knowing what he knew now, he really didn't want Bam to know the truth, but still he also felt bad for lying when the two others had just been honest with him. "Erh... Uhm.... walk in? Well... no, not... exactly..."
"Well same here, more or less and alcohol surely helped to forget about it." Ville laughed, he was a bit nervous about telling all that and tried to think of something to say so Bam did not exactly know what happened, but could guess it. "If someone would have walked in... on... that... he wouldn't have seen much, right, Jess?" He asked and looked over at Jess, trying not to smirk at remembering the night.
Not saying anything, Bam just carried on watching them, trying to figure out what was going on, but his mind was just skipping to all the wrong conclusions he was sure. He didn't even want to think about what his brain was making up.
"What, you mean apart from two drunken men passed out? Nope, not much else other than that. Not much else..." Jess repeated, mostly to himself, and nodded his head. Reaching for his smokes, he cast a quick glance at Bam, looking for any indication of what he might be thinking.
Ville looked at Jess again and nodded then, hoping that would do for Bam as an explanation. "Yeah, I must say you have a comfortable bed to sleep in." He laughed; sleeping with another guy in bed was not bad, was it? And really, there was not that much more happening than that.
Bam shook his head a little, he still didn't have the full picture and they were doing that on purpose. "Then how does that mean that Ville found out about you being bi, Jess?" He didn't want to say too much, but didn't like the things his brain was telling him and neither Ville nor Jess seemed to be explaining themselves properly, so what did they have to hide from him?
"It's uhm... he's a smart guy, you know." Jess chuckled, trying to make it sound sincere but knew he was failing miserably and that Bam was sure to see right through it. He looked at Ville with a look that clearly said how-do-we-get-out-of-this-one?!
"Bam, I am a teacher, I am smart and just know things like that." Ville joked a bit. "I’ve known Jess for some time now, since I am here in Westchester. He was one of the first people I got close to... like became friends with, you know? And friends talk." He shrugged a bit and looked at Jess to kinda ask him to agree to that.
Ville spoke like he was telling the truth, and Bam couldn't see that what he said wouldn't be the truth, but that still wasn't making sense with the way they had reacted to talking about how Ville knew his brother was bi. But he couldn't exactly tell them they were all lying and make a big deal out of it, he didn't want to look too silly when they both knew and he didn't, and maybe there just wasn't anything to say, he could be jumping to the wrong conclusion entirely.
"Yeah, yeah exactly." Jess eagerly nodded in agreement with Ville. "I think we talked about it one of the first times we met, right? Maybe even the first time? In a drunken conversation or something..." He smiled at Bam and hoped he would stop asking any more questions.
"Yeah, I think it really was the first time. I met you at one of your gigs and we got along well and drank some and talked about me turning on little school boys." Ville laughed, looking at Bam and patting his thigh, knowing that right now he was with one of the said little school boys.
A little smile tugged at Bam's lips from Ville's words as he tried to forget all of the things running through his head, they didn't need him getting all worked up over nothing, or what could be only nothing, he didn't know. Sinking back into the sofa, Bam drank once more from his glass and let himself relax a little more.
"Oh yeah, that's true - you revealed your perverted side already back then." Jess joked and gave Ville a nudge. Seeing Bam smile and visibly relax again filled him with relief that they had seemingly averted disaster; at least for now.
Ville laughed and rested back against the couch. "So Bam... you know now that I’ve known Jess for quite some time now, and that I knew about his sexuality for about the same time." He nodded and looked from one to the other. "Now, Bam, it would be your turn to reveal a secret." He said, still wanting to kiss the younger, but he knew it would be awkward for the brothers.
Bam looked at Jess and then settled on Ville, cradling his glass in his hands to give him something to do other than what he wanted to do. "What sort of a secret?" He hadn't got a clue what he could tell the both of them, Ville didn't really know him that well, and Jess would probably have an idea of some of the things he might say anyway.
Jess smirked at Bam "Yes little brother, it's your turn to reveal a secret now, anything you haven't told your dear brother and your, eh... teacher." He realised that he still had no idea what the two of them were to each other and even though he had been just about to say ‘boyfriend’ he realised that that would probably be a bad idea. Plus he found that it was also a little hard for him to say that word about his brother and his friend.
"Just tell me something I... eh, we don't know." Ville said, looking over at Jess and then deciding to just place a hand on Bam's knee and let it stay there. It was not a sexual touch or anything, he'd do that with friends as well so he thought it would be okay and he could finally touch Bam. "Just tell us something interesting about you."
"I dunno, Jess probably knows most of the things I would be okay talking about, like I've probably broken more bones than the both of you put together." He shrugged, he didn't like telling things about himself that much if it was too revealing, but skateboarding was an easier topic, especially when Ville was touching him in any way.
Watching Ville put his hand on Bam's knee once again reminded Jess of the evening's first revelation and seeing them touch made him realise that it was in fact true and not just a joke. He discreetly cast another glance to where they were touching and made a decision to really try hard to get used to the idea. "Broken bones? Hell yeah, it's a wonder you're still alive!" He laughed at Bam, almost taking pity on him because he obviously didn't feel comfortable talking about his secrets.
"That must have hurt every time you broke one." Ville commented and squeezed Bam's knee gently, looking over at Jess as he was talking. "Never tried to be more careful?" He asked, taking a sip of his whiskey and thinking about something he could tell the others if he should be asked for it.
"Bones do kinda hurt if you break them..." Bam couldn't help but be a little sarcastic, "But where is the fun if you're too careful?" He wasn't really meaning that as a question, half-looking at the both of them as he drank from his glass once more. He debated reaching to touch Ville in some way, but he wasn't sure how Jess would take to that, and it probably wasn't the right time, so he just held on to his drink instead.
Taking another sip from his glass, Jess decided to give Bam a break for now and turned his attention to Ville instead. "And how about you Mr. Valo, any dodgy secrets you haven't told me and my brother yet?"
"Oh, I am sure that there are many of them, but what to you want to hear?" Ville asked and looked at Jess. "I assume you don't need to know how I stole a toy from my best friend as we were about 5 years old." He laughed and drank some more whiskey.
"Just as you said, something interesting." Bam smirked at Ville, moving one hand down to squeeze the fingers on his knee, watching Jess out of the corner of his eye. He wondered what Ville had to share, after all their joking of the sex club and the like; he knew he didn't know that much about him really.
"Yeah, something interesting but not so interesting that you end up scarring Bam, alright?" Jess chuckled as he discreetly watched Bam squeeze Ville's fingers and he couldn't help but smile on the inside. It still felt really weird to see it, but he couldn't deny that it was also kinda sweet.
"I don't wanna scare my little Bammie." Ville said and tangled his fingers with Bam's as he looked over at him with a soft smirk. "Did I tell any of you about my daddy's little shop back home?" He asked and looked over at Jess then, not wanting to leave any of them out of it.
"Just that he had one, I think." Bam thought about it, remembering them talking in the café at the beginning of the extra maths sessions. He was glad that Jess didn't appear to be bothered by him and Ville touching, and it didn't feel that odd to him, or at least, it felt better than it did odd.
"I'm taking it we're not talking about a kiosk now, huh? So what does your daddy do back in ol' Finland?" Jess asked and settled back in the couch, folding his legs under him and reaching for another smoke, awaiting whatever crazy story Ville had to tell now.
"First give me one of these?" Ville said and stole the cigarette Jess reached for, lighting it and having a long drag of it. "I bet both of you would be interested in it and no it isn't a kiosk. Daddy has a sex shop." He smirked. "As I was still at school I worked there for a little extra money."
Bam's eyebrows rose as he took in what Ville said. He couldn't help but get all sort of things come to mind, he was sure Ville would have had some interesting times in there when he was younger. He did mean to say something, but was a little lost in his thoughts, and so drank more of his drink since the others were both smoking and he wasn't.
"A sex shop?! Like, as in... a sex shop? With dildos and shit?" Jess spluttered. "Fucking hell...." He mumbled to himself. "Now I definitely need another smoke - since you stole mine, yet again." He added with a groan and tried to look serious.
Ville had to laugh a bit at both of their reactions and took another drag of his cigarette. "Yes, with dildos and all the other things you can think of, like porn and sexy clothes and you know..." He shrugged a bit and leaned back, enjoying his cigarette.
"So why are you a teacher then?" If it was him, he wouldn't have quit working there, why would you give up something like that? Bam couldn't work it out, and there were too many other things on the tip of his tongue that Jess probably shouldn't hear, so he tried not to say too much just in case.
That was a good question Bam asked and Jess turned to Ville as he added, "Yeah, I would have thought that working in a sex shop is more fun than being a math teacher, it's not like- oh, well... then again, with the kind of math you two are practising..." He left his sentence unfinished and winked at the two others.
"After a few months it gets really boring... seeing all these old horny men again and again and again." Ville said and moved his hand from Bam's leg to wrap it around his waist and pull him close against his side. "Or seeing young horny teenagers trying to sneak in underage and steal some porn." He poked Bam's side.
Bam tried not to grin as Ville urged him closer, but it was hard not to, they hadn't been near each other in a few days and then all of the stuff with Jess finding out earlier on, it was something like comforting to be wanted closer. "Like you hadn't been the horny teenager at the time too." Bam stuck out his bottom lip at Ville before looking along at his brother.
Watching the two of them gently tease each other, Jess tried to give them a serious look but he felt a smile tug at the sides of his mouth and finally he had to give and just grin at them as he shook his head. "I can't fucking believe this... Hey Bam , you *are aware* we have just seriously reduced Ape's chances of becoming a grandmother, right?"
"But I could have the stuff all the time without being all embarrassed by sneaking in a sex shop." Ville laughed and he couldn't hold himself back anymore, he had to kiss Bam quickly as he saw the look on his face. Looking over at Jess then he gave him a soft smile and was glad he kinda reacted well to all of that.
Ville's lips were gone before Bam could hardly even close his eyes, but it would be enough for the time being, and the fact he had done it at all had Bam in a much brighter mood that was nothing to do with their previous drinking. "I know, but hey, you're the oldest, maybe you did something and made me like this. I can always blame you." He nodded, grinning at Jess as he leaned into Ville slightly to look at his brother.
"Hey don't blame *me*, it's not from me you got your genes!" Jess grinned back at his brother before finishing his drink. "And if you'll excuse me, I think I hear you toilet calling my name now, Ville." He said and got up from the couch. He really *did* need to go but he also needed a moment to himself to think over the fact that they had just kissed. His head seemed to be going back and forth between thinking they looked good together, to thinking that it was completely insane that they were together. Or whatever the fuck they were.
"That's okay... you know your way around." Ville said and as soon as Jess was out of the room he turned a bit and pulled Bam closer, having one hand on the back of his neck as he pressed his lips to the younger ones in a proper kiss, now that they were alone.
Bam tried not to look too excited that they would get a few moments alone time, sliding his fingers along Ville's leg as he happily kissed him back. Things didn't seem so bad between them all now Jess knew, he had seemed to be more okay with it than Bam had thought he would, so Bam could forget some of his worries and just concentrate on Ville's warm lips for a few minutes.
Part: 16/?
Chapter Links: Links to all the Chapters
Author: tia_maria_616 & snowisgreat & sweetchild85
Pairing: Ville/Bam
Rating: PG - NC-17, depending on the chapter
Summary: A troublemaker and a teacher with a past meet outside of lessons for some private tutoring, but it soon becomes apparent that their subject is changing from maths to chemistry. How long can their learning last before the experiment bubbles over and someone gets burnt?
Disclaimer: Persons are a law unto themselves and sadly we cannot claim ownership rights.
Warning: Age-difference, teacher/student - relationship
A/N: This was basically started as an RP and just edited now to post it up as a story to share the fun with you. So hold on to your hats and fasten your seat-belts, this is just the beginning.
"You bet your ass it includes you as well! You're not getting out of this one that easily." Jess looked at Bam with a stern look but couldn't help smiling inside; he should have known Bam would try and take the easy way out. "Come on, let's go then." He said and gestured for the two of them to go ahead.
Ville looked over at Jess, then at Bam and afterwards walked out of the bar. Right as they were outside he reached for his cigarettes and lit one, hoping that the nicotine could calm his nerves a bit. "So uhm... Jess... what do you... think there is?" He asked, wanting to know what Jess thought was happening before he was said too much.
"Algebra?" Bam suggested, not really having anything to add in such a situation other than to try to lighten the mood. He had been hoping Jess and Ville would just talk and he could run far away, but he followed along outside all the same, not sure if he should walk with either of them or just by himself.
Seeing Ville light a smoke made Jess think that maybe that was a good idea, he needed something to calm him down a little. "What I think? Honestly Ville, I have no idea what to think," He said and flung out his arms. "I just know that unless the tone between teacher and student has changed a whole fucking lot since I finished school, something more than algebra," He shot Bam a glance, "is going on between the two of you."
"It is something more than just algebra." Ville said and nodded a bit. "It is way more than that." He took a long drag of his cigarette and looked at Bam and then at Jess and then just around the area, he didn't really want to look at any of them longer right at that moment. "We'll soon be there." He said then and reached in his pocket with a hand to get his key.
Once more feeling the younger one for not smoking, Bam could see that Ville wasn't looking at anything, or anyone for that matter. While he himself wasn't feeling that comfortable, he couldn't help but wonder what Ville was planning to say about it all, and just what Jess wanted to know for.
"I figured..." He took a last drag of his smoke and threw the butt on the side of the street. He looked at Bam who was being very quiet and he felt his big brother gene kick in again. "Hey? Bam? Look at me."
Ville took another drag of his cigarette and then threw it on the ground as they reached his apartment. "You first," He said as he unlocked the door to his place, holding the door open for the other two. "You should both know your way around." He sighed, feeling a bit uncomfortable.
Bam cast a short look at his brother before he stepped through the doorway, might as well get it over and done with. Ville's place was still as messy as ever, but as usual the sofa was free, so he sat down on one of the arms and indicated to Jess to sit.
Jess took a seat on the sofa next to where Bam sat on the arm and turned his attention to his brother. "Look Bam, I'm not gonna kill you or run off to Ape and Phil and tell them anything, okay? This whole... thing between the two of you is just freaking me out and I'd really like to know exactly how well you know each other, alright?" He fished out another cigarette, god knows he needed it, and got more comfortable. "So.... who's gonna start?"
Ville stood across from them and run a hand through his hair, looking from one to the other and just watching them for a moment. "Does anyone want something to drink?" He didn't really want to get right into it. "Jess, we... okay this started with some private lessons, because you know that Bam isn't that great when it comes to maths... and we kind of got a bit closer than just teacher and student...“ He said it very casually, at least tried to make it sound casual.
Bam watched Jess more than Ville, resting his head in his hand as he listened to Ville half explain what was going on. Maybe if Jess said he wouldn't say anything to anyone it'd be okay, but he wasn't so sure... it was his brother after all.
"No shit" Jess snorted at Ville's casual explanation. "And yeah, something to drink please, something strong." Sometimes cigarettes really weren't enough. He mused over Ville's words for a short while. "Exactly how much closer, Bam?" He turned his head and looked at Bam with raised eyebrows. He had a feeling that Bam was staying quiet because he didn't want to tell the whole truth.
Ville turned so he could walk to the kitchen and get something to drink, being glad to get away from them for a moment. He also thought about maybe giving them some privacy, but still wasn't too sure about that, did he want to leave them alone right now? "Bam, you want something too?" He asked as he got himself and Jess a nice glass of whiskey.
"Mmm, ye- No, thanks." Bam changed his mind, thinking that for once he didn't want to be stepping his foot in it, so probably drinking more wouldn't help. Instead he looked back across at Jess, the person he was used to letting in on some of what he got up to, but now he really didn't want to. "A little bit more?" He hazarded, raising an eyebrow slightly.
Jess let out a sigh. "Bam, stop pussy-footing around like that, okay? I mean it, I'm not gonna tell on you. I haven't done that since I was a teenager, I'm not gonna start again now. Spill it." He hoped that his face didn't reveal just how upset he actually was about this whole thing; it wasn't like it was every day you found out your little brother and your friend had something going on.
After drinking a bit of the alcohol first and then refilling his glass again Ville walked back out to the living room, holding the one glass out for Jess, while keeping the other for himself. "When you say that you're not going to tell on him... does that include me too?" He asked, looking curiously at Jess, he had a pretty good idea what would happen if this got public. "There wasn't that much happening, but enough to cause major problems for me." He took a sip of his drink and decided to sit down across from them.
Bam had been on the edge of saying something more, but when Ville came in he let him take over, after all as he had said, things would have more of an impact on him. How much at the end of the day would Jess really want to know?
When Ville came back into the room, Jess turned his attention away from Bam and gratefully accepted the drink. He looked at Ville in silence for a while before he spoke again. "I don't know. I wish I could say yes and mean it, but I can't and I'd rather be honest with you. I guess it depends on what you are gonna tell me." He shifted around in his seat before going on. "Look, I know Bam isn't a kid anymore and I very much doubt you've forced him to do anything he didn't want to do but god dammit Ville, you're his teacher!" He hadn't meant for the last part to come out quite as accusatory but his frustration got the better of him.
Ville rolled his eyes a bit and sighed loudly. "God, Jess... don't you think I know that? I know that I am his teacher and that whatever we do besides being student and teacher is pretty much illegal." He reached for his drink and almost downed it at once. "We just got closer a bit... and it just happened on its own. I wasn't planning on doing something with a student. He is six years younger than me... and...“ He shook his head a bit, not knowing what to say anymore.
"I am kind of… here." Bam reminded, tapping his fingers against his cheek still sat in his hand. He knew he should have not come back to Ville’s; it would have been so much easier. Maybe Ville was his brother's friend, but Jess was actually related to him, and was kinda hard to ignore if he didn't like what was going on.
"Okay, can one of you please just tell me how serious this is, like, did you fuck or what?!" Jess exclaimed when he’d had enough of their beating around the bush. "Then afterwards we can talk about what it all means, okay? I'm not gonna call the police or the principal or anyone so just relax Ville, but please, for fuck's sake, tell me what's happening!"
Ville rubbed at his eyes and set the glass down on the table, getting up to walk around the room a bit, too many things in his mind to think off to just sit there, he needed something to do. "More than once." He said after taking a deep breath, knowing he wasn't only telling his friend about it, which would have been what he wanted, having someone to talk about it to, but he also was telling the older brother of his 'lover' that they fucked, and that usually never went well and it probably wouldn't end that well in this special case.
"Happy now?" Bam added, watching Ville wandering around and trying not to think of their previous meetings in there. No, he really didn't like talking about things like this, and especially guessing the 'advice' his brother would try to give.
He sucked in a sharp breath upon hearing Ville's admission. He knew he should have expected it but the truth still hit him like a bucket of cold water and it took a few moments and a big gulp of whiskey to digest the information. "Ehm... Okay then. Wow... How long? Bam?"
Ville chewed on his lip as he watched from one to the other brother, arms crossing over his chest, kind of to not let the others that close to him in a way. He knew it was wrong and he knew that they couldn't hide it forever, but he hadn’t thought it would happen that soon that someone would find out. Looking over at Bam, Ville wanted to let him answer, Jess did clearly want him to answer that one.
Bam's gaze travelled over to Ville briefly, "Umm, I dunno... I guess about two week’s maybe? I haven't exactly been counting." He shrugged, trying to play it off as much as he could, but he was still wondering what Jess was going to say, or more why they were waiting for him to say anything anyway.
"And is that the truth? Because I swear to god if you are not being honest with me and I find out… I'll be pretty upset, let's put it that way." Bam was normally very honest with him in the things he let him in on, but he wasn't sure if he could still count on that in this case - after all, there was quite a lot at stake here.
Ville nodded a bit. "Yeah, it is... it's been going on for around two weeks, give or take a few days." He sat down again and sighed heavily. "Look, Jess... I know you probably did not expect something like that... from your friend and your brother, but it just happened, we know it's wrong, but it's..." He wasn't exactly sure if he should go on talking, but it didn't really matter now, "...it's too good to stop it."
Bam's hand slowly slipped from his chin as he heard what Ville said, he couldn't help but smile at that. He was glad Ville said it first because he wouldn't have been able to in case Ville wasn't thinking that, but in fact he was feeling the same way exactly which surprised him, but he wasn't quite sure why.
Jess held up his hands "Okay, please no details! And you are very right; I wasn't expecting this in a million years, not at all. Does anyone know?" He hoped and prayed they were gonna say no.
Ville did not say anything to the details point. "No, no one has seen us together like you did." He said and took a deeper breath, relaxing a bit at Jess's reaction. "We only meet here or are seen in school together, but everyone knows that I am officially giving him some extra maths lessons, so nobody asks any questions." He explained.
"And same goes for Ape and Phil," Bam added, looking back at his brother now, "It's just maths lessons." He nodded, as if convincing himself.
"'Kay... and just to make sure I've got it right, those math lessons aren't really math lessons, right?" He looked questioningly at the two. Now that they had finally started giving him some facts he felt himself relax a little more. Knowing what had happened made it easier to relate to it.
Ville shook his head. "No, the math lessons aren't real math lessons." He sighed a bit and stood up again to get the whole bottle of whiskey from the kitchen instead of just refilling the glass. "Well, the first one kind of was." He said as he came back, looking over at Bam and having the need again to kiss him or just touch him and be closer, but he knew he probably shouldn't do that with Jess around.
"Nobody wants to do maths really; it's too boring even for a teacher to want to do." Bam shrugged, playing with a small tear around the knee in his jeans. It was more comfortable now that Jess knew, kind of. But still it was an odd situation for him to act as he normally did around Ville.
"Well, I'm not surprised to hear that coming from you." Jess said, directed at Bam as he reached for the whiskey bottle and poured some in his glass again. Playing with the glass, he sat for a while and observed the golden-brown liquid lick up the sides and tried to make some sense out of the evening's revelation. Even though the cards were now on the table, he still wasn't any closer to figuring out how he felt about it.
Ville poured himself another glass of whiskey and had a sip of it, looking over at Bam. "You sure you don't want anything to drink?" He asked, not knowing how long they would sit there together and how the night would end.
"Well... yeah, go on then." Now they had come out with it, he guessed he didn't need to worry about keeping a check on what he said, and it would probably make the evening go better if they all had a drink.
Taking his eyes from the drink in his hands, Jess let out a sigh before he started speaking again. "Ville, I... I've gotta ask you something... and I hate doing it but... I just have to man, even though you are my friend but fuck, Bam is my brother and... yeah." He took a deep breath before he lifted his eyes to Ville's. "Is Bam the first of your students that you... you know... like? ...with?"
Ville took a deep breath and exhaled it slowly as Jess asked him that. He knew sooner or later that the question would come up. "Uhm, yeah, he is the first. I don't usually go for students." He looked at Jess, wanting him to see that he was serious about it and not making up a lie. "He is just... I don't know, it just happened, something was just right." He shrugged a bit, not really knowing how he should explain it.
Bam wasn't going to say anything to that, he just watched Ville, trying to hold in his smile. He knew he had often joked about things like that with Ville, but he hadn't really ever asked specific details about the past people in his life, just like Ville didn't know about all of his. To hear him say for sure that Bam was the only student he had done anything with made him feel eased, but he hadn't been aware he had any doubts before.
Releasing a breath he hadn't realised he was holding, Jess muttered a "Thank god!" He hadn't expected Ville to say anything else and he had felt really bad about asking but he felt he *had* to; just for ease of mind. "Okay, so you two have been fucking each other for a couple of weeks during math lessons, nobody knows, you are both aware of how illegal it is, and you have no intention of stopping. Does that sum it up? Or is there anything else I should know?"
"That kinda sums it up, yes." Ville didn't really like the way Jess said it all, but he was right. "I don't think there is more you need to know. You didn't want details, right?" He asked and looked at Jess, drinking some more whiskey. "Oh and Bam... you know where you can find glasses."
"Oh, yeah." Bam nodded, quickly walking out of the room and into the kitchen, hoping that he could get away from that part of the conversation. He felt weird whenever the word illegal came up, he knew it was wrong and everything, but still the idea was something of a thrill to him. Though it wasn't the only reason he was doing what he was, it was still a part of it.
When Bam had left the room, Jess shook his head. "For fuck's sake Ville..." He said in a low voice. "What the hell are you thinking?! You're not only putting your job on the line here, but you might actually go to jail if this gets out!" He looked at his friend with a pleading look, almost hoping Ville was gonna break out in laughter and tell him it was all a bad attempt at making a joke.
Ville rested his elbows on his knees, putting his head on his hands and sighing deeply. "I know." He ran one hand through his hair and shortly looked up at Jess before looking down again. "It should have never happened, but I can't change it anymore."
Just managing to hear their conversation from in the kitchen, Bam slowed down getting a glass out of the cupboard, listening carefully for what his brother and Ville said while he was gone, but trying to not make it obvious what he was doing.
Seeing how Ville seemed truly defeated and didn't even try and put up a fight, just admitted everything, made Jess calm down. "You're very right it shouldn't..." He emptied his glass a second time. "And of all the boys in that school, you had to go for my little brother..." Again he shook his head but he couldn't quite keep his lips from curling into a small smile when he thought of how twisted the whole thing was.
"I didn't know it was your brother." Ville said and just had to laugh at that, knowing it would have probably also happened if he would have known that the two were related. "And I guess you know now why last Saturday was all strange. I freaked out for a moment when I saw Bam at your place."
Hearing the conversation becoming a little easier, Bam shut the cupboard and left the kitchen, sitting properly on the sofa instead since he was a little happier to be near his brother now.
When Bam sat down, a thought suddenly hit Jess and he quickly turned his head. "Fuck! Does this mean my baby brother is gay?!" He stared at Bam with eyes the size of tea cups. Until now he had been so focused on the teacher/student aspect that he hadn't even given it a second thought that they were actually both guys.
Ville couldn't help himself now he just had to laugh at that question. He didn't know how much the two brothers knew of each other, but it seemed like they still had some secrets. Sitting up a bit more again and taking another sip of whiskey he looked over at both of them and was curious now how this would go on.
"Does this mean my brother is as blind as a bat?" Bam countered, staring back at Jess. Surely he must have noticed, or at least suspected something before. It wasn't like Bam hid what he got up to, but he guessed that he never usually said specifically whether he was with a girl or a guy, just left it up for interpretation.
Jess burst out laughing. "I guess it does yes, because I definitely hadn't seen that one coming! My god, Bam! Do Ape and Phil know?" He managed to croak out between laughs.
"You're not as close as I would have thought, or does Bam just not talk much about his life?" Ville asked as he looked from one to the other and lit a cigarette, enjoying the moment.
Bam shrugged a little, looking from Jess to Ville and smiling himself as he leant forward to pour himself a drink. "Ape and Phil are even less likely to know than you were." He said to his brother, not too fussed about Jess knowing really, if he wouldn't use it against him. "And I don't know how Jess never worked it out." He added, shaking his head at Ville.
Offering Ville a cigarette and then lighting one himself, Jess shrugged and cast a look at Bam. "I guess I maybe should have put two and two together sooner - meaning, before it was written in neon letters before my eyes! - but I just didn't think that my skater punk brother might be into guys too." He grinned at Bam and enjoyed that the mood in the room had changed now.
Ville moved so he was sitting crossed legged, he would love to join the brothers on the other couch, but stayed at a distance just in case, he didn't want Jess to get uncomfortable if he shouldn't be able to keep his fingers away from Bam. "What about your sexuality, Jess, since we discussed Bam's and my current... relationship."
Bam stuck his tongue out at Jess as Ville spoke, then sipped from his glass innocently as he looked over at Ville again, thinking it was just what they needed to turn the tables on his brother after the evening they'd had so far.
He wasn't really surprised at Ville's question but he wasn't sure what to answer. He smiled and watched the smoke rise from the tip of his cigarette before he spoke. "Well... let's just say that Deron and I do more than just play in the same band occasionally... I *do* like girls too though," He added and looked at Bam. "The women I've brought home have been real girlfriends, not just some cover-ups."
"I knew that there was something between you and Deron, from just watching the way you two act around each other." Ville chuckled softly and took a drag of his cigarette with a smirk on his face. "Why didn't you really tell me about that? I only hear about your stories with girls."
"Because he doesn't want to squeal and get all girly on you." Bam smirked, wondering why his brother in that case had never said anything, but then he guessed neither had he.
"Shut up you little brat," Jess laughed and slapped Bam's leg. "Uhm... I don't know? I guess it never really came up? I mean, it's not like we're together-together, it's just... yeah, when none of us are in a relationship, we kinda... "Take care of each other", you might say." He had actually never thought more closely about what it was him and Deron were doing, they just... did it. "It's not like we're hiding it, we're just not talking about it openly, you know?"
"You could have still told me about it." Ville said laughing a bit. "I mean... I tell you who I am fucking." He stubbed out his cigarette and reached for his glass again. "Well, you know... just not... that thing..." He trailed off and looked over at Bam, winking at him.
"Why Ville, how many others are you fucking?" Bam twisted Ville's words, raising an eyebrow as he looked from Jess over to Ville on the other side from them and drank his drink.
Jess had been just about to say something to Ville but stopped himself when he heard Bam's question. This was all so new to him and he realised he had no idea if Ville and Bam were actually in a relationship or if it was more casual and so he didn't know if Bam's question was meant as a joke or if he was serious.
"Oh come on, Bam, you should know that." Ville rolled his eyes. "We talked about that and I told you that you're the only one at the moment and I don't wanna change that." Suddenly Ville remembered that Jess was in the room too and decided to better shut up and not blabber out too much about what exactly was going on between them.
"Yeah, yeah, okay." Bam waved his hand a little in the air. "So anyway, you've been hiding from us all, Jessy-pie." Bam made his voice go all childish over his nickname, grinning at his brother over his glass.
Jess grimaced at hearing his old nickname from his childhood coming from Bam. "Well, it seems to me that I haven't hidden anything you haven't done yourself, baby bro." He shot back with a smirk, emphasising the ‘baby’. "I sure haven't heard you talking about any boyfriends at the dinner table."
"You two are too cute together, but I need to leave you now for bit... all that alcohol wants out of my body now." Ville stood up with a soft laugh, needing to go to the toilet and thinking the two might want a few minutes alone.
Watching as Ville left, Bam turned back to Jess once again. "Maybe I haven't been talking because there haven't been any to talk about? Did you think of that?" He asked, wondering why everything was coming up between them when they normally hardly talked of such things.
"Yeah, cute is exactly what we are." Jess chuckled as Ville left. "Is Ville your first?" He asked in surprise at Bam's words. Seemed like the surprises just kept on coming tonight and he thanked the lord for cigarettes and whiskey; apparently tonight was a night for revealing secrets.
"Cute and a bit chaotic." Ville called as he went away, taking longer than he normally would, because he wanted to give them some time to talk about some things if there was anything they wanted to talk about in private. As he washed his hands after taking a piss he checked his appearance in the mirror and decided that he was still looking good enough, even with the eyeliner that was a bit smudged.
Bam made a face at his brother, not so keen now to explain what he had said. "Is Ville my first what?" He paused, unsure what to say without saying too much, "Not a first time..." The bottom of his glass was starting to look far more interesting as the seconds went by.
Jess couldn't help but smile when he saw Bam go all shy on him and he put his hand on his brother's knee. "So he's not the first guy you're with? Is he your first uhm... I'm not sure what you two actually have going here... relationship?"
Right as Ville wanted to walk back into the living room, he heard Jess ask Bam about the thing they had and since he himself wasn't too sure about it, he stayed in the hallway silently and listened to their conversation, wanting to know what Bam would tell Jess.
Bam looked over at the other side of Ville's living room as he paused. "I'm not so sure as he's a first for that either. And you must know me a little; I don't do that well anyway." He shrugged, flicking his eyes over in the direction he knew Ville would arrive back from soon.
"So you two are just fucking then? There's nothing more serious than that?" Jess asked, even though he knew that it had to be something deeper than casual sex; otherwise Bam wouldn't have acted like that earlier. He hoped that his question might make Bam admit it but he wasn't too sure.
So Bam also wasn't really sure what they were. Ville took a deeper breath as he thought about it and decided to wait one more time for Bam's answer and then he would walk back into the living room to join them again.
"I wa-" Bam stopped, changing tack, "Can we just drop it now? Thanks." He answered for his brother, there was no point in talking about that with Jess when he didn't know himself, and he could bet Ville would come out of the bathroom just as he said anything weird.
"Sure, maybe we can talk about it some other place -" He looked around the room "_-that isn't Ville's. If you feel like it, you know. More to drink?" He asked as he reached for the bottle on the table. He could see why maybe Bam didn't feel comfortable talking about it when Ville could come back in any moment.
"Did you miss me?" Ville asked as he was walking back into the living room, trying to sound as if he didn't just listen to their conversation and deciding to join them on the sofa. "So what should we do with the rest of the night? Reveal some more secrets now that we're at it?"
Bam's eyes jumped up to watch Ville coming into the room again, he hadn't heard the bathroom door open, but they had been a little distracted. "Oh I missed you alright." Bam grinned, holding out his glass for Jess to refill, "Depends who wants to tell secrets, doesn't it?"
Filling all three glasses again, Jess grinned at Ville. "It seems like this night is all about revealing secrets, doesn't it? You two ding each other, and me coming out to my brot-" Jess stopped himself and spun around on the couch to face Ville. "You fucker! You *know* about me being bi! You just wanted me to admit it here!" He burst out and caught Ville in a wrestling grip.
"Yes, Bam... I want you to reveal your secrets; I already know some of Jess'." Ville laughed as Jess grabbed him and playfully hit his shoulder. "Sure I did know about it... how could I not know?" He winked at the older brother and then looked over at Bam.
Bam watched the two of them, thinking how weird it actually was for them to be friends, his brother and his teacher. "How could you not know what?" He frowned, realising he was missing out on something. "I don't think it's my secrets we need to learn." He drank slowly again from his glass, leaning back into the sofa.
"Uhm... Ville?" Jess asked as he let go of the hold. It wasn't until now that he suddenly realised that Bam might not be too thrilled to learn about the way they met. "You care to explain that one?"
Ville sat up straighter as Jess let go of him and reached for his newly filled glass, having a sip of it. "Hmmm... I am not sure if I really want to explain that." He laughed a bit and shook his head, really not wanting to tell Bam that he almost fucked with his brother. "I thought we wanted to forget about that."
Bam watched between the two of them, trying to guess at what they could be talking of. "You don't... Did you walk in on something, or... what?" He hazarded, not liking being clueless at all, and even less the way neither of them wanted to explain.
"I had forgotten about it until now." Slowly taking another sip of his whiskey, Jess' head was working on overtime trying to figure out how to handle this one. Knowing what he knew now, he really didn't want Bam to know the truth, but still he also felt bad for lying when the two others had just been honest with him. "Erh... Uhm.... walk in? Well... no, not... exactly..."
"Well same here, more or less and alcohol surely helped to forget about it." Ville laughed, he was a bit nervous about telling all that and tried to think of something to say so Bam did not exactly know what happened, but could guess it. "If someone would have walked in... on... that... he wouldn't have seen much, right, Jess?" He asked and looked over at Jess, trying not to smirk at remembering the night.
Not saying anything, Bam just carried on watching them, trying to figure out what was going on, but his mind was just skipping to all the wrong conclusions he was sure. He didn't even want to think about what his brain was making up.
"What, you mean apart from two drunken men passed out? Nope, not much else other than that. Not much else..." Jess repeated, mostly to himself, and nodded his head. Reaching for his smokes, he cast a quick glance at Bam, looking for any indication of what he might be thinking.
Ville looked at Jess again and nodded then, hoping that would do for Bam as an explanation. "Yeah, I must say you have a comfortable bed to sleep in." He laughed; sleeping with another guy in bed was not bad, was it? And really, there was not that much more happening than that.
Bam shook his head a little, he still didn't have the full picture and they were doing that on purpose. "Then how does that mean that Ville found out about you being bi, Jess?" He didn't want to say too much, but didn't like the things his brain was telling him and neither Ville nor Jess seemed to be explaining themselves properly, so what did they have to hide from him?
"It's uhm... he's a smart guy, you know." Jess chuckled, trying to make it sound sincere but knew he was failing miserably and that Bam was sure to see right through it. He looked at Ville with a look that clearly said how-do-we-get-out-of-this-one?!
"Bam, I am a teacher, I am smart and just know things like that." Ville joked a bit. "I’ve known Jess for some time now, since I am here in Westchester. He was one of the first people I got close to... like became friends with, you know? And friends talk." He shrugged a bit and looked at Jess to kinda ask him to agree to that.
Ville spoke like he was telling the truth, and Bam couldn't see that what he said wouldn't be the truth, but that still wasn't making sense with the way they had reacted to talking about how Ville knew his brother was bi. But he couldn't exactly tell them they were all lying and make a big deal out of it, he didn't want to look too silly when they both knew and he didn't, and maybe there just wasn't anything to say, he could be jumping to the wrong conclusion entirely.
"Yeah, yeah exactly." Jess eagerly nodded in agreement with Ville. "I think we talked about it one of the first times we met, right? Maybe even the first time? In a drunken conversation or something..." He smiled at Bam and hoped he would stop asking any more questions.
"Yeah, I think it really was the first time. I met you at one of your gigs and we got along well and drank some and talked about me turning on little school boys." Ville laughed, looking at Bam and patting his thigh, knowing that right now he was with one of the said little school boys.
A little smile tugged at Bam's lips from Ville's words as he tried to forget all of the things running through his head, they didn't need him getting all worked up over nothing, or what could be only nothing, he didn't know. Sinking back into the sofa, Bam drank once more from his glass and let himself relax a little more.
"Oh yeah, that's true - you revealed your perverted side already back then." Jess joked and gave Ville a nudge. Seeing Bam smile and visibly relax again filled him with relief that they had seemingly averted disaster; at least for now.
Ville laughed and rested back against the couch. "So Bam... you know now that I’ve known Jess for quite some time now, and that I knew about his sexuality for about the same time." He nodded and looked from one to the other. "Now, Bam, it would be your turn to reveal a secret." He said, still wanting to kiss the younger, but he knew it would be awkward for the brothers.
Bam looked at Jess and then settled on Ville, cradling his glass in his hands to give him something to do other than what he wanted to do. "What sort of a secret?" He hadn't got a clue what he could tell the both of them, Ville didn't really know him that well, and Jess would probably have an idea of some of the things he might say anyway.
Jess smirked at Bam "Yes little brother, it's your turn to reveal a secret now, anything you haven't told your dear brother and your, eh... teacher." He realised that he still had no idea what the two of them were to each other and even though he had been just about to say ‘boyfriend’ he realised that that would probably be a bad idea. Plus he found that it was also a little hard for him to say that word about his brother and his friend.
"Just tell me something I... eh, we don't know." Ville said, looking over at Jess and then deciding to just place a hand on Bam's knee and let it stay there. It was not a sexual touch or anything, he'd do that with friends as well so he thought it would be okay and he could finally touch Bam. "Just tell us something interesting about you."
"I dunno, Jess probably knows most of the things I would be okay talking about, like I've probably broken more bones than the both of you put together." He shrugged, he didn't like telling things about himself that much if it was too revealing, but skateboarding was an easier topic, especially when Ville was touching him in any way.
Watching Ville put his hand on Bam's knee once again reminded Jess of the evening's first revelation and seeing them touch made him realise that it was in fact true and not just a joke. He discreetly cast another glance to where they were touching and made a decision to really try hard to get used to the idea. "Broken bones? Hell yeah, it's a wonder you're still alive!" He laughed at Bam, almost taking pity on him because he obviously didn't feel comfortable talking about his secrets.
"That must have hurt every time you broke one." Ville commented and squeezed Bam's knee gently, looking over at Jess as he was talking. "Never tried to be more careful?" He asked, taking a sip of his whiskey and thinking about something he could tell the others if he should be asked for it.
"Bones do kinda hurt if you break them..." Bam couldn't help but be a little sarcastic, "But where is the fun if you're too careful?" He wasn't really meaning that as a question, half-looking at the both of them as he drank from his glass once more. He debated reaching to touch Ville in some way, but he wasn't sure how Jess would take to that, and it probably wasn't the right time, so he just held on to his drink instead.
Taking another sip from his glass, Jess decided to give Bam a break for now and turned his attention to Ville instead. "And how about you Mr. Valo, any dodgy secrets you haven't told me and my brother yet?"
"Oh, I am sure that there are many of them, but what to you want to hear?" Ville asked and looked at Jess. "I assume you don't need to know how I stole a toy from my best friend as we were about 5 years old." He laughed and drank some more whiskey.
"Just as you said, something interesting." Bam smirked at Ville, moving one hand down to squeeze the fingers on his knee, watching Jess out of the corner of his eye. He wondered what Ville had to share, after all their joking of the sex club and the like; he knew he didn't know that much about him really.
"Yeah, something interesting but not so interesting that you end up scarring Bam, alright?" Jess chuckled as he discreetly watched Bam squeeze Ville's fingers and he couldn't help but smile on the inside. It still felt really weird to see it, but he couldn't deny that it was also kinda sweet.
"I don't wanna scare my little Bammie." Ville said and tangled his fingers with Bam's as he looked over at him with a soft smirk. "Did I tell any of you about my daddy's little shop back home?" He asked and looked over at Jess then, not wanting to leave any of them out of it.
"Just that he had one, I think." Bam thought about it, remembering them talking in the café at the beginning of the extra maths sessions. He was glad that Jess didn't appear to be bothered by him and Ville touching, and it didn't feel that odd to him, or at least, it felt better than it did odd.
"I'm taking it we're not talking about a kiosk now, huh? So what does your daddy do back in ol' Finland?" Jess asked and settled back in the couch, folding his legs under him and reaching for another smoke, awaiting whatever crazy story Ville had to tell now.
"First give me one of these?" Ville said and stole the cigarette Jess reached for, lighting it and having a long drag of it. "I bet both of you would be interested in it and no it isn't a kiosk. Daddy has a sex shop." He smirked. "As I was still at school I worked there for a little extra money."
Bam's eyebrows rose as he took in what Ville said. He couldn't help but get all sort of things come to mind, he was sure Ville would have had some interesting times in there when he was younger. He did mean to say something, but was a little lost in his thoughts, and so drank more of his drink since the others were both smoking and he wasn't.
"A sex shop?! Like, as in... a sex shop? With dildos and shit?" Jess spluttered. "Fucking hell...." He mumbled to himself. "Now I definitely need another smoke - since you stole mine, yet again." He added with a groan and tried to look serious.
Ville had to laugh a bit at both of their reactions and took another drag of his cigarette. "Yes, with dildos and all the other things you can think of, like porn and sexy clothes and you know..." He shrugged a bit and leaned back, enjoying his cigarette.
"So why are you a teacher then?" If it was him, he wouldn't have quit working there, why would you give up something like that? Bam couldn't work it out, and there were too many other things on the tip of his tongue that Jess probably shouldn't hear, so he tried not to say too much just in case.
That was a good question Bam asked and Jess turned to Ville as he added, "Yeah, I would have thought that working in a sex shop is more fun than being a math teacher, it's not like- oh, well... then again, with the kind of math you two are practising..." He left his sentence unfinished and winked at the two others.
"After a few months it gets really boring... seeing all these old horny men again and again and again." Ville said and moved his hand from Bam's leg to wrap it around his waist and pull him close against his side. "Or seeing young horny teenagers trying to sneak in underage and steal some porn." He poked Bam's side.
Bam tried not to grin as Ville urged him closer, but it was hard not to, they hadn't been near each other in a few days and then all of the stuff with Jess finding out earlier on, it was something like comforting to be wanted closer. "Like you hadn't been the horny teenager at the time too." Bam stuck out his bottom lip at Ville before looking along at his brother.
Watching the two of them gently tease each other, Jess tried to give them a serious look but he felt a smile tug at the sides of his mouth and finally he had to give and just grin at them as he shook his head. "I can't fucking believe this... Hey Bam , you *are aware* we have just seriously reduced Ape's chances of becoming a grandmother, right?"
"But I could have the stuff all the time without being all embarrassed by sneaking in a sex shop." Ville laughed and he couldn't hold himself back anymore, he had to kiss Bam quickly as he saw the look on his face. Looking over at Jess then he gave him a soft smile and was glad he kinda reacted well to all of that.
Ville's lips were gone before Bam could hardly even close his eyes, but it would be enough for the time being, and the fact he had done it at all had Bam in a much brighter mood that was nothing to do with their previous drinking. "I know, but hey, you're the oldest, maybe you did something and made me like this. I can always blame you." He nodded, grinning at Jess as he leaned into Ville slightly to look at his brother.
"Hey don't blame *me*, it's not from me you got your genes!" Jess grinned back at his brother before finishing his drink. "And if you'll excuse me, I think I hear you toilet calling my name now, Ville." He said and got up from the couch. He really *did* need to go but he also needed a moment to himself to think over the fact that they had just kissed. His head seemed to be going back and forth between thinking they looked good together, to thinking that it was completely insane that they were together. Or whatever the fuck they were.
"That's okay... you know your way around." Ville said and as soon as Jess was out of the room he turned a bit and pulled Bam closer, having one hand on the back of his neck as he pressed his lips to the younger ones in a proper kiss, now that they were alone.
Bam tried not to look too excited that they would get a few moments alone time, sliding his fingers along Ville's leg as he happily kissed him back. Things didn't seem so bad between them all now Jess knew, he had seemed to be more okay with it than Bam had thought he would, so Bam could forget some of his worries and just concentrate on Ville's warm lips for a few minutes.