Wishing i Was Somewhere Else...
A lot of stuff has been going on lately. Everything that has been going on...just makes me enjoy being alive. We all might take life for granted, in fact i know we all do...but once you've been through what i have...it makes you realize how lucky you are to be alive, and how lucky you are to have a family who cares and a nice house to live in and people who love you. Everyone now a days just want more and more things...we live in a material world, where possions mean everything to everyone.
i feel like i am taking my family for granted...i never spend time with them and talk to them like i used to. i always lock my self in my room to escape reality. i never eat dinner with them anymore..i rarely eat dinner at all. i go drive to get some mcdonalds and find myself somewhere else. its weird. i get side tracked and i dont remember how i got there. i wish everything in my life would make sense...even just for like 2 seconds.. my brother is dying. my sister is dying and my mom has skin cancer...and people say life is good?? yeah maybe for them..
Sometimes i like to ignore my problems and pretend they arent there. But sooner or later you have to face reality...