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And everyone keeps asking me if I had a good time this year and if I have some good memories and if I'll miss Tours and ESCEM. This question annoys me because of course the answer is YES. This is my last year of university and is exactly what I needed. I learned sooooooooooo damn much about myself and life I cant even begin to describe it. Although I'm a bit scared about the future, where I will be, and how will I get to where I want to be, how can I change the world for there better, how can I live with myself and others in this shitty world, etc...I feel better equipped to face all these questions and to find solutions.
I was stupid sometimes this year, and throughout all of university, I tested myself, my limits, the status quo, and I fell. A lot. But you know what? I helped myself up, brushed off my knees, and kept walking. I think at this phase of life you're supposed to be stupid and do crazy things IN ORDER to learn how to get back up. And I dont regret a thing.
This evening I have a dinnerdate at a restaurant with friends (I'm showing up later because I have no money to eat)and we're all going out after. Tomorrow we, at the Kfet, are throwing an end of the year little party and I'm not sure if I'll cry or not. Lord, how am I supposed to walk away from all these people, that I've grown so attatched to, that I care about, despite their flaws? And when I go back to Canada, how will I face a culture and a life that I've grown unaccustomed to? I know that when I go back, it will be like I missed out on a year of my life back their...how will that feel?
One thing is for sure is that there are ppl out on the Terrace of the Kfet downstairs, enjoying a beer, and I think I'll go join them.
I was stupid sometimes this year, and throughout all of university, I tested myself, my limits, the status quo, and I fell. A lot. But you know what? I helped myself up, brushed off my knees, and kept walking. I think at this phase of life you're supposed to be stupid and do crazy things IN ORDER to learn how to get back up. And I dont regret a thing.
This evening I have a dinnerdate at a restaurant with friends (I'm showing up later because I have no money to eat)and we're all going out after. Tomorrow we, at the Kfet, are throwing an end of the year little party and I'm not sure if I'll cry or not. Lord, how am I supposed to walk away from all these people, that I've grown so attatched to, that I care about, despite their flaws? And when I go back to Canada, how will I face a culture and a life that I've grown unaccustomed to? I know that when I go back, it will be like I missed out on a year of my life back their...how will that feel?
One thing is for sure is that there are ppl out on the Terrace of the Kfet downstairs, enjoying a beer, and I think I'll go join them.