Aug 10, 2009 15:18
Mom and Dad-
I've reached a breaking point. I can't keep on with things the way they are right now. I'm tired of having to lie about a part of my life that I'd love for my family to be a part of so I'm not going to do it anymore. You want the truth?
I'm gay. I'm in a long term relationship. And I've never been happier.
This isn't a choice. This isn't a disease. This isn't something I've chosen for myself, or picked up from my friends, and I'm not gay because of the way you raised me. Whether you believe it or not, I know that this is how I was born and there is no treatment or cure that can change that.
That's all there really is to it. These last few years of my life... especially the last three... have been hell for me. But it hasn't been so hard because I feel guilty. It hasn't taken me this long to tell you because I'm ashamed or it's something I've wanted to hide. I've been waiting on you. I know that you two already knew this. I know that it's not a surprise. I know that you've known for a while. And it's because of this, that I've waited. I've gotten to the point that I won't wait anymore.
I've only ever wanted to hear that my parents will love me unconditionally no matter what. I was only ever looking for some kind of security, to feel that when you hear it from me, and when there's no doubt left, that I will still be welcome as a part of the family and loved for who I really am. Because I haven't changed. Not one bit. Now you just know the rest of me. Isn't that what you wanted? To be a part of my life? Well, this is my life and I'm not lying about it anymore. I only ever wanted to feel safe, loved, and accepted in my own home. I can't do that for myself.
So it's up to you, Mom and Dad. I will be nothing but honest with you from this point on because I have nothing else to hide. YOU choose what happens next. It's your choice, whether or not you want to accept your daughter for who she is.
Love,
Taylor