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Well how lucky for me that Matt talked to me last night. I honeslty think it would be better if he never talked to me again but for some odd reason he felt the need to last night and when I bugged him about him being an ass last time he didn't even flinch or even keep real conversation with me. Most men in my life right not (not all) seem to only have the motivation to talk to me when they want me. I've never had this problem before I've always been thge friend or buddy sure there may have been crushes before but none of them were ever brave enough to do any thing about it. I feel like such a freaking piece of meat some times now. I know I may have wanted that before but I'd rather be regarded as a brain or someone who has a passion for thier art and creativity. I am happy that I'm with Corey and he has nothing to do with this but I guess I just never thought I'd be the opject desired by so many. And each of them think they are more deserving than the other. Well ass holes get a life and move on cuz if you ever want this girl you have to win her heart and her heart is taken now any way so back the hell off.
Ok now that I'm done ranting! Things are a little crazy right now. We just finished Trojan Women. Probaly the most successful show i've been in since Once Upon A Matress and it was awsome. The way it affected people was amazing. Sure there were people who didn't get it but hey we know there are people out thier without brains. I miss the cast already we were so professional well cept the whole Eljah thing but little kids make you want ot have fun. Not only that but we enjoyed each other so much. Just being in eachotherws company we had a wonderful time. Working with Bobbie Bell was amazing and I hope I get the chance again next year in Anything Goes. I miss you my dear family and friends and hope we can have fun again.
In new crazyness I'm the stage manager for Hay Fever our next show here at SCC. I'm excited , scared and stressed out all at the same time. I am thrilled to get to work with Anne Hering and the cast of fun exciting and new people. I'm scared of messing up and somehow making a bad reputation for myself. I want this to lead to other oppertunities and open new doors so I need to not mess up. I'm stressed because I have a lot to handle here to accomplish that. I don't know that it will be as hard as Ten Little Indians with a smaller cast and more professinal atmosphere but we have a lot less time to get this together and I just found out for sure I had the job Sunday our first rehersal. So I had a lot less time to prepare. I'm sure i'll be fine but I just need to get more of my frustrations out to keep my mind sane. Then theres the whole being responcible and organized thing that I've sorta fallen out of a little bit and need to get back on board with that. I used to be better with it and well here is my oppertunity to do so.
hope things are good where you are.
Breahte deep, seek peace
*Sweet Charade
Ok now that I'm done ranting! Things are a little crazy right now. We just finished Trojan Women. Probaly the most successful show i've been in since Once Upon A Matress and it was awsome. The way it affected people was amazing. Sure there were people who didn't get it but hey we know there are people out thier without brains. I miss the cast already we were so professional well cept the whole Eljah thing but little kids make you want ot have fun. Not only that but we enjoyed each other so much. Just being in eachotherws company we had a wonderful time. Working with Bobbie Bell was amazing and I hope I get the chance again next year in Anything Goes. I miss you my dear family and friends and hope we can have fun again.
In new crazyness I'm the stage manager for Hay Fever our next show here at SCC. I'm excited , scared and stressed out all at the same time. I am thrilled to get to work with Anne Hering and the cast of fun exciting and new people. I'm scared of messing up and somehow making a bad reputation for myself. I want this to lead to other oppertunities and open new doors so I need to not mess up. I'm stressed because I have a lot to handle here to accomplish that. I don't know that it will be as hard as Ten Little Indians with a smaller cast and more professinal atmosphere but we have a lot less time to get this together and I just found out for sure I had the job Sunday our first rehersal. So I had a lot less time to prepare. I'm sure i'll be fine but I just need to get more of my frustrations out to keep my mind sane. Then theres the whole being responcible and organized thing that I've sorta fallen out of a little bit and need to get back on board with that. I used to be better with it and well here is my oppertunity to do so.
hope things are good where you are.
Breahte deep, seek peace
*Sweet Charade