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[sweetcatastrfee]

last night i had a serious breakdown. i just started bawling hysterically. Earlier tonight i had a mini breakdown...but like 10 minutes ago i decided to get over myself. i think i'm suffering from burnout. It's like the 90+ degree weather is getting to everyone. plus, monday-thursday of this week, we were short a counselor because the head counselor had her wisdom teeth out. so i've been coming home with literally zero tolerance left for anything and usually i'm coming home to noise. either it's my brother and my mom arguing, my brother on the drums, my dog being insane or god knows what else. in the midst of my breakdown last night my mom said that things weren't that bad. that even though i feel like everything's going wrong lately, things could be worse. there are people out there that are fighting serious illnesses, or people that don't have a place to live. clearly i have no reason to complain about my circumstances. I have to pay $1000 to fix my transmission, but my parents are paying to fix my brakes and my muffler so, obviously, i could be hurting a lot worse. sometimes i just wish i was stronger. my brother's little league coach got divorced and then like 3 months later was diagnosed with a rare cancer and he pulls along with dignity. i wish i could be like that. i get hit with a few pieces of bad news this summer and i'm losing it. 5 more days of camp. one more week of LC. and then hopefully things will start to look up.

bad news this summer:
my eyes suck. i need surgery.
boys are idiots.
transmissions are expensive.
too much work = too much tired.

good news this summer:
A in bio.
making lots of money to pay for aforementioned transmission and other necessities (and non necessities)
second row yankees tickets are kick ass.
1609 Prospect Street is BEAUTIFUL.

When life hands you lemons...

i still think i need a hug...or someone to shake me out of this negative funk but hopefully by august 25th (yankee game) all will be well again.