hopefully this doesn't put anyone to sleep :P
Has there ever been a time where everything in your life is really just normal, and things haven’t changed but suddenly at 1 a.m. you feel like a different person? I can’t really explain what I’m feeling right now. It’s rather nice to suddenly get a boost of energy and to think so positively. I had this wonderful conversation with Jay on the phone and I just let myself go. I talked about things with him that I think about, but never really share with others because some might see them as silly. The wonderful part is it has nothing to do with Jay, it’s kind of inner peace I felt while talking about my thoughts, which in return made me reach deeper within myself when I had to explain what I was feeling.
I love the night time, it makes feel at rest and so peaceful that I can hear all my thoughts very distinctively. Morgan knows how much I curse waking up early, but I don’t think I’m going to have a problem tomorrow; I have absolutely no idea why I suddenly feel so… alive. No, I’m not high, or drunk just incase someone might think I’ve gone psycho.
When I wake up to my alarm clock or the phone it makes me agitated and nervous. I love waking up without any disturbances and really getting that full amount of sleep which I always feel I’m missing out on. Clutching my blanket and then stretching out as I turn to see the sunshine pouring through gives me a sort of high on life feeling. This happens very rarely, and people take that for granted. I like slowly rising out of my bed without having to worry about time. Time is my worst enemy because I feel I rush to get things done in time and then the faster I try to beat the clock, the faster the clock beats me and before I realize what’s happening, the time has passed me by.
There are moments when I hate taking risks, things that others have absolutely no problem doing. On the other hand, things people might consider difficult I don’t seem to have problems with, and lately I feel I really don’t care as much what people think of me. I mean, I hope they do think some positive things, but I don’t care as much if they would think differently about me.
Hmm… I love to vent and explore new ideas. Like this. I hate to plan things, and schedule my day because of what someone else thinks I should be doing. Spontaneously doing something gives me such a rush and satisfaction. When someone suggests things that I know I should be doing, I will not do it just because I now feel that it’s what I’m expected to do, and I can not stand being confined within the lines.
Many people place labels on things and other people as well. People judge others and I can’t ignore the fact that I’ve done it too. When I see a person I right away form an opinion about that person that however can be easily broken if you try to approach me a certain way. I trust someone completely and hate liars. Those people who lie to make themselves seem what they are not I consider pathetic.
My biggest annoyance has got to be ignorant people. When every other word that comes out of your mouth starts with the letter “F” you probably have grown up in a bad environment or you choose to act like someone else because you can’t think for yourself. I’m not going to be a hypocrite, I know how hard it is for people that think they will not be excepted unless they act a certain way, and I’ve been there and done that… and I’ve come to the realization that the only opinion that matters is how you view yourself and what is important for you. That no one can ever deny you because you are in control of your actions, thoughts and opinions. Only you can really influence yourself to believe what you want to believe. And I guess that’s what makes everyone so unique.
I love the night time, it makes feel at rest and so peaceful that I can hear all my thoughts very distinctively. Morgan knows how much I curse waking up early, but I don’t think I’m going to have a problem tomorrow; I have absolutely no idea why I suddenly feel so… alive. No, I’m not high, or drunk just incase someone might think I’ve gone psycho.
When I wake up to my alarm clock or the phone it makes me agitated and nervous. I love waking up without any disturbances and really getting that full amount of sleep which I always feel I’m missing out on. Clutching my blanket and then stretching out as I turn to see the sunshine pouring through gives me a sort of high on life feeling. This happens very rarely, and people take that for granted. I like slowly rising out of my bed without having to worry about time. Time is my worst enemy because I feel I rush to get things done in time and then the faster I try to beat the clock, the faster the clock beats me and before I realize what’s happening, the time has passed me by.
There are moments when I hate taking risks, things that others have absolutely no problem doing. On the other hand, things people might consider difficult I don’t seem to have problems with, and lately I feel I really don’t care as much what people think of me. I mean, I hope they do think some positive things, but I don’t care as much if they would think differently about me.
Hmm… I love to vent and explore new ideas. Like this. I hate to plan things, and schedule my day because of what someone else thinks I should be doing. Spontaneously doing something gives me such a rush and satisfaction. When someone suggests things that I know I should be doing, I will not do it just because I now feel that it’s what I’m expected to do, and I can not stand being confined within the lines.
Many people place labels on things and other people as well. People judge others and I can’t ignore the fact that I’ve done it too. When I see a person I right away form an opinion about that person that however can be easily broken if you try to approach me a certain way. I trust someone completely and hate liars. Those people who lie to make themselves seem what they are not I consider pathetic.
My biggest annoyance has got to be ignorant people. When every other word that comes out of your mouth starts with the letter “F” you probably have grown up in a bad environment or you choose to act like someone else because you can’t think for yourself. I’m not going to be a hypocrite, I know how hard it is for people that think they will not be excepted unless they act a certain way, and I’ve been there and done that… and I’ve come to the realization that the only opinion that matters is how you view yourself and what is important for you. That no one can ever deny you because you are in control of your actions, thoughts and opinions. Only you can really influence yourself to believe what you want to believe. And I guess that’s what makes everyone so unique.