The LJ is back!
So it was a typical summer day for Linze...packed. Woke up at 5 went to work then out on the boat, did a lil wakeboarding, ate dinner at Round Table, worked out, got home showered and left in 30 mins, went to gians to say bye, went to yevs to say bye, and 19 hours after I left this morning I have returned. Today was interesting. I'm thinking just exactly what I want to comment about. Well today really made me appreciate the friends that I have remained in contact with. There is a reason that I have not grown apart from those people and it became very apparent to me today. I want to remain friends with them because they are amazing people who I choose to spend my time with. Seeing some people today brought back bad feelings of akwardness, fakeness, and the reality that things will never be the same. In high school you did not have much of a choice sometimes who you hung out with. Where ever your group was...so were you. But now that I'm back from college I love being able to pick and choose to hang out with people who I can enjoy myself around, enjoy their company, be myself, and not be forced to talk to people who we both know would rather not be having a conversation with one another. But also I guess those situations can be good. I talked to an old friend tonight and remembered why we used to be such good friends. He's a great guy and although I sometimes find it hard to use nice words to describe him he really is a decent guy and I truly miss our friendship. There is no way to get it back to the way it was before all the stuff went down between us, but I wish things were how they were in sophomore english. Nothing but innocent fun. I love my friends I have and I love the new friends I have made. I wish everyone the best of luck and I hope nothing but the best happens to them. But to those people who make me feel bad about myself and will not let go of things that happened over two years ago-I'm sorry. I will continue to say hi to you when I see you and force a smile, but if you can't forgive and forget you have lots to learn.