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Lately I've been having these little get togethers with people and I feel so out of place. I'm not anti-social or anything but everytime I say something to try and get in the conversation or actually say something meaningful to me it turns into a little tease fest. And then they wonder why I'm so aloof. It really gets on my nerves. I've been watching these japanese dramas lately and I've been really contemplating life because of it. They have the most cheesy lines about "friends will be there forever". Not once in my life have I truly thought that anyone I have met so far is going to be a friend for life. I'm not saying there isn't a possibility. It's just that I don't feel so attached. My sleep schedule is completely ruined. I've been going to sleep at 8 am in the morning and waking up at 4:30 pm. I don't know how I can stay up this late but it's been going on since summer started.