starting off
ok so the point of a journal is to write in it this has always been a problem for me writing i mean. Well only one way to get better keep trying right? this is what i have been taught and grow to believe but sometimes trying harder and not giving up is wrong and will only hurt you more. This is another thing i would like to get better at being able to walk away from the battles that just can't be won. I look back on 2004 and see a year wasted fighting to be loved and cared about by someone who in the end only cares about what they want at this moment someone who wont see past there own shallow small reality. This sucks but i can't forget the great things in my life i have a home not just a place to live but somewhere i really think of as home. I have good friends although there all in there lets hang out with your ex-girlfriend phase but this is nothing new it will pass as it has before. I have a team, Team Bison has been such a good part of my life i may be fighting Jan 8th in Rochester MN "Battle at the Barn 6" I not very strong for my size i'm really slow luckily i enjoy being in the cage it's such a huge rush that nothing really hurts anymore the noise of the crowd becomes a buzz and i just slowly work my way to the choke well that's the way it goes in my head in truth i have won most of my fights in under a minute by choke. but in my head it feels like forever well not bad for my first real entree good night.