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i just have one thing to say. i was so wrong about everything. i just reread my journal, and i couldn't believe how wrong it sounded. was that really me?
yeah i've been through some tough shit, but who hasn't? i was being so selfish, my mom doesn't think any of that, how could i have been so judgementle? i have an awesome life, i'm lucky, and i know it now. i can't believe i was so...just...stupid. my mom just found my journal, and she read it, yes, all of it. i felt so ashamed. i don't know why i wrote all that shit about her. now i know that she didn't really say any of that. i am such an idiot. of course i'm loved and cared for. why was i so dumb? i am so ashamed that i talked shit about my mother like that. she is the most trustworthy person i will ever know, and now i have given all of you the worst impression ever. she loves me, and now i know it. i was so busy wallowing in my own saddness i didn't relise that there are people out there that have it worse than me. i am lucky, and now i know that.
yeah i've been through some tough shit, but who hasn't? i was being so selfish, my mom doesn't think any of that, how could i have been so judgementle? i have an awesome life, i'm lucky, and i know it now. i can't believe i was so...just...stupid. my mom just found my journal, and she read it, yes, all of it. i felt so ashamed. i don't know why i wrote all that shit about her. now i know that she didn't really say any of that. i am such an idiot. of course i'm loved and cared for. why was i so dumb? i am so ashamed that i talked shit about my mother like that. she is the most trustworthy person i will ever know, and now i have given all of you the worst impression ever. she loves me, and now i know it. i was so busy wallowing in my own saddness i didn't relise that there are people out there that have it worse than me. i am lucky, and now i know that.