Nov 09, 2008 22:42
Hello all. Sorry I have been so lame this weekend. I missed two parties because I've been feeling the need to be a hermit. I was talking to my sweety about how and maybe why I've been feeling so low.
I think it may be rooted in the fact that I have the job I've worked for years to get... and I still can't make ends meet. I'm overworked, overstressed and I can't seem to keep enough money in the bank to pay bills and live a normal human life. I was raised on the idea that if you work hard you'll be able to support your loved ones... but at the end of every month I feel like I'm failing somehow. Like I'm doing something wrong or I should be just fine.
If you have a good, full-time job as a professor, shouldn't you be able to pay your bills and still have some left over at the end of the month? Is there something wrong with the way I spend money... or am I just not getting payed enough? I get $2,300 a month... how does this compare to other people who are working and trying to support a loved one? Are my expectations too high?
Anyway. Sorry I've been so lame. I'll try to work through it.
Although I may seem hermit-ish tomorrow at Narnia... hugs and cuddles would be apriciated.