*peek*
Ever since meeting Awesome Hot Lady a few weeks ago, I am taking an interest in the outside social world again, browsing the OKC. browsing it all is interesting, kindof.
Also terrifying, kindof. I have a firmer idea of what i do and don't want. I need to do more exploring, because there's a lot more that i want in my life that i don't have words for, and i'm not going ot know how to ask for it unless i get out there and look.
So often i'd rather stay shelled up than unfold and walk around and *shudder* interact :) I've got to suck it up and get out there. New meds are helping, but the last week has been rocky. Seeing the ADHD come back to the surface is interesting. I never was fully medicated, but i see now that really really did not go away, and though i still have a handle on it, when i don't have to be rigidly controling my brain, things are a bit less predicatble. I'll take being a spaz over being anxious any day of the week.
Also terrifying, kindof. I have a firmer idea of what i do and don't want. I need to do more exploring, because there's a lot more that i want in my life that i don't have words for, and i'm not going ot know how to ask for it unless i get out there and look.
So often i'd rather stay shelled up than unfold and walk around and *shudder* interact :) I've got to suck it up and get out there. New meds are helping, but the last week has been rocky. Seeing the ADHD come back to the surface is interesting. I never was fully medicated, but i see now that really really did not go away, and though i still have a handle on it, when i don't have to be rigidly controling my brain, things are a bit less predicatble. I'll take being a spaz over being anxious any day of the week.