20th
Everything in my life comes down to the small word Wait. I don't know what I'm doing half the time. I have to WAIT and see. But waiting is the hardest thing in the world for me to do. Josie totally dropped a cryptic remark yesterday when I was talking to him, so I'm waiting to see what that means. I'm waiting to do my final project stuff in school cause I'm not ready. I'm waiting for this and that. I hate waiting, but I know it's good for me.
I also have serious doubts about a lot of things in my life. Things go so fast then people get freaked out and bail on me. I try to keep them going smoothly and *shrugs* it just all falls down. What a pattern. I open up and show people who I am and just be and I get rejected for it. I'm either too affectionate or not affectionate enough. UGGS! Will there ever be anyone that will not want me to change drasticly? It's totally unfair because if I feel like someone needs to change and I can't like them the way they are I just don't date them. DUHHHHH There are very few people that I feel that way about though.
I also have serious doubts about a lot of things in my life. Things go so fast then people get freaked out and bail on me. I try to keep them going smoothly and *shrugs* it just all falls down. What a pattern. I open up and show people who I am and just be and I get rejected for it. I'm either too affectionate or not affectionate enough. UGGS! Will there ever be anyone that will not want me to change drasticly? It's totally unfair because if I feel like someone needs to change and I can't like them the way they are I just don't date them. DUHHHHH There are very few people that I feel that way about though.