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i think my heart jumped out of my chest today.
you're dying to know why.
flannery said "erinn got a callback!" and I said "OH MY GOD, is rebecca on it too?"
and kyle said "well, she's probably already cast"
and yes yes yes
that means THEY ARE IN THE PLAY and i am so happy for them that i could cry and cry and hug them forever.
and i don't even think they know, that they're the only things that make me smile.
no, i suppose that's a lie. memories make me smile, and Mr. Spang makes me smile, and hugs make me smile.
today i ran outside, breahtless with ruthie, onto the bleachers with the sun beating down on my neck, and was quickly followed by erinn, chris, and noni. We took pictures through the fence, and ran along the track in our socks.
we laughed and ran around the sidewalk, leaping and taking pictures.
will i find friends like these when i leave?
ones who will hold me in their laps on our steps after a tragedy and let me cry, and look at the flag without saying a word?
will i find ones who will cry when i cry, and know when to hug me and when someone touches me i will cry?
will they know my cereals, and my moods, and my room, and my journals.
will they know my abilities, and my fears and my life, and my future?
will they hide under the covers with me and fall asleep on friday afternoons?
will they sit with me at our favorite restaurant on friday nights and talk aobut nothing but us?
will they know that i'm scared of so much, and know that they have been my teachers, my students, and my life?
do they know i won't find anyone like them?
nobody who sits with their feet out of the window, who falls asleep on roofs, who plays in the rain, and discovers heavens
do you think i will find anyone like them?
or is it a lost cause?
you're dying to know why.
flannery said "erinn got a callback!" and I said "OH MY GOD, is rebecca on it too?"
and kyle said "well, she's probably already cast"
and yes yes yes
that means THEY ARE IN THE PLAY and i am so happy for them that i could cry and cry and hug them forever.
and i don't even think they know, that they're the only things that make me smile.
no, i suppose that's a lie. memories make me smile, and Mr. Spang makes me smile, and hugs make me smile.
today i ran outside, breahtless with ruthie, onto the bleachers with the sun beating down on my neck, and was quickly followed by erinn, chris, and noni. We took pictures through the fence, and ran along the track in our socks.
we laughed and ran around the sidewalk, leaping and taking pictures.
will i find friends like these when i leave?
ones who will hold me in their laps on our steps after a tragedy and let me cry, and look at the flag without saying a word?
will i find ones who will cry when i cry, and know when to hug me and when someone touches me i will cry?
will they know my cereals, and my moods, and my room, and my journals.
will they know my abilities, and my fears and my life, and my future?
will they hide under the covers with me and fall asleep on friday afternoons?
will they sit with me at our favorite restaurant on friday nights and talk aobut nothing but us?
will they know that i'm scared of so much, and know that they have been my teachers, my students, and my life?
do they know i won't find anyone like them?
nobody who sits with their feet out of the window, who falls asleep on roofs, who plays in the rain, and discovers heavens
do you think i will find anyone like them?
or is it a lost cause?