Just babbling like a fat idiot!!!

[sweetatheena]

It wasn't until this year that I realized how much I have changed,

I have lost friends,

I have made the most amazing new ones ever,

I have made some of the hugest mistakes of my life and they will haunt me for as long as I live,

I have brought things upon myself and put myself in a position to be questioned,

I turned away the most amazing guy ever and screwed everything up because of something that I did not thinking and selfishly that he probably will never think that same thing of me again,

I tried new things that I never even knew I could do,

I got my heart broken,

I turned into something that I am not,

I was raised different and to always do everything my best,

But for some reason everything I do or have anything to do with I screw it up,

Just when everything gets good in my life it can't be too good and its ruined,

I have been fake,

I tried to change for ppl when all I needed to be was myself,

I realized that all I need to do is have fun with life and live it one day at a time,

Not everything has to be done in one day,

I tried to be the best I could,

But every time my planes changed I changed,

I gave up when I shouldn't have,

I stopped believing in things I shouldn't have,

And starting believing in things that weren't real,

I met some ppl that I will never forget,

Others will just be part of my past,

Once some one enters your heart they will never truly leave,

I realized that all that I need in my life is the ones that truly know the real me and the ones that care and I love,

And that's all that matters.