[private entry]
It's been over a month since Stitch and I broke up and everything has been so weird. When he dumped me, my whole life just like stopped and I've had to rebuild everything back again from the ground up. I don't know if I'm doing a very good job, but at least I leave the house now and go to work and spend time with mates and don't really feel like dying most of the time.
It was really bad at first. I just laid in my room and stared at the ceiling and didn't do anything at all :-/ I wasn't even taking my meds that regularly and when June came over, I was seeing Poppy and kind of...freaked out on her. I didn't really mean to, but I grabbed her and shouted at her and I still feel really bad about it!
After that I thought maybe I should try to get out more and go clubbing like I used to, cos that'd be better than just sitting inside all the time, but even that reminded me of Stitch cos we used to go to clubs together and it was like I stopped feeling numb about the break up and all the emotions from it just hit me at once. Daisy found me crying outside the club and took me back to her flat, and I told her everything. Everything about everything! Even about me being mental. I think she's okay with it though. I mean, she still let me spend the night at her flat.
Things got a little better after that. I even went out to Vic and Gui's engagement party last weekend and actually spent time with people like a proper person. It was nice, really, cos I didn't think about Stitch at all. Maybe the key to everything is just to be as busy as possible, so I don't have any time left over to think about him!
It was really bad at first. I just laid in my room and stared at the ceiling and didn't do anything at all :-/ I wasn't even taking my meds that regularly and when June came over, I was seeing Poppy and kind of...freaked out on her. I didn't really mean to, but I grabbed her and shouted at her and I still feel really bad about it!
After that I thought maybe I should try to get out more and go clubbing like I used to, cos that'd be better than just sitting inside all the time, but even that reminded me of Stitch cos we used to go to clubs together and it was like I stopped feeling numb about the break up and all the emotions from it just hit me at once. Daisy found me crying outside the club and took me back to her flat, and I told her everything. Everything about everything! Even about me being mental. I think she's okay with it though. I mean, she still let me spend the night at her flat.
Things got a little better after that. I even went out to Vic and Gui's engagement party last weekend and actually spent time with people like a proper person. It was nice, really, cos I didn't think about Stitch at all. Maybe the key to everything is just to be as busy as possible, so I don't have any time left over to think about him!