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How can someone's mood change so completely from one moment to the next
just by sitting here
I know. I'm lying to you and myself again. I know why. but i couldnt help myself.
I hate the past and i hate history.
It must not be healthy to feel so completely overwhelmed with feelings of abhorrence and nausea just by reading a few words that were written in a silly blog.
maybe they're right. maybe i am bipolar.
my throat is aching. i'm terrified of getting sick. i freak out when someone sneezes or coughs near me. I wash my hands whenever i get the chance. or i use those little hand sanitizers stationed around school.
I just want to go back to being someone who didnt have to think about immune systems and immunosuppressives. Is my headache; confusion; dizziness; fast heartbeat; difficulty sleeping; weakness; shortness of breath; or sore throat sign of infection?
how many times will i throw up today? will it be in public? or class? is all this worrying going to put me in a bad mood so that i end up saying something mean or stupid to someone i care about?
Like i said i want to go back to being someone else.
just by sitting here
I know. I'm lying to you and myself again. I know why. but i couldnt help myself.
I hate the past and i hate history.
It must not be healthy to feel so completely overwhelmed with feelings of abhorrence and nausea just by reading a few words that were written in a silly blog.
maybe they're right. maybe i am bipolar.
my throat is aching. i'm terrified of getting sick. i freak out when someone sneezes or coughs near me. I wash my hands whenever i get the chance. or i use those little hand sanitizers stationed around school.
I just want to go back to being someone who didnt have to think about immune systems and immunosuppressives. Is my headache; confusion; dizziness; fast heartbeat; difficulty sleeping; weakness; shortness of breath; or sore throat sign of infection?
how many times will i throw up today? will it be in public? or class? is all this worrying going to put me in a bad mood so that i end up saying something mean or stupid to someone i care about?
Like i said i want to go back to being someone else.