Little Sister dont miss when she aims her gun
Well I originally wrote this wonderfully and then my possesed computer froze and here I am, rewriting. Well guys, I have wonderful news and terrible news. I'll give you the great news first cause I'm still all giddy from it! ^_^ So I am staying here this summer!! I get to work catering and live on campus all the while getting a great tan and chillin with some friends. Zach talked me into applying last night so I emailed Shawn and he showed up at the sub this morning and gave me the job! Im excited cause I might even get to work with a certain boy ;) Speaking of which...He was so crabby yesterday at work :( I kinda thought he was mad at me so I was a bit hesitant in inviting him to the BBQ but I did and he came! He is so adorable *sigh* I was out on the loading dock today at work, talking to Joel and Cole and he kept coming out to see what we were talking about (they are always trying to get me to ask him out) it was funny because whenever he would walk out there, I would bust out laughing and turn bright red. Even brighter then you kate lol But when I finally left work, he was complaining about how i left so that made my day! ^_^ After yesterday though, nothing can be topped. I just cant believe that he came for one pretty sad burger and then hung out with me for half an hour...then he walked me home. Oh im hopeless I know. I was so hyper afterwards that I got Robert to go an a walk with me and we walked for an hour...not a good thing to do with a badly sprained and slightly fractured ankle but meh, it was worth it. Ok so for the bad news...Im done with my best friend. I cant be friends with this person anymore. It hurts beyond belief but I'm sick and tired of onesided friendships and I think I deserve better then that. A lot of people are shocked because everyone figured that we would be together forever, but alas, no one knows him like I do and know one knows how he really is...at least towards me. He is a good guy but not a good friend. Who knows, maybe its just me but whatever the reason, I cant do it anymore. I did the hardest thing today when I walked away completely and I cried so hard afterwards. It felt that my world had died and I wasnt sure how I was going to manage but then i thought about it, talked to my family and friends and i realized that it is for the best. I realized that I am never happy when I am with him and that progressively throughout the year he has become more of a jerk then I ever thought possible. Today was the frosting on the cake though. Today he came the to sub and told brad a ton of lies to make me look bad. Friends dont do that. Brad then came up to me and was asking me about what happened and I was in shock. So now I have to do damage control with Brad and I have to talk to someone else but oh wait, he cant take the time to talk to me til sometime next week...Its over and though it breaks my heart, I cant keep going on with this. I'll love him forever and will always be there, but I cant rely on him to be there for me. i cant rely on him to be a good friend and be honest. I cant rely on him period and now its just time to move on.
Goodbye ~ Alicia Keys
Bye Bye
How do you love someone that hurts you oh so bad. With intentions good was all he ever had. But how do I let go when I've loved him for so long and I've given him all that I could. Maybe love is a hopelss crime, giving up what seems a lifetime. What went wrong with something once so good? How do you find the words to say, to say goodbye when your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye? I know now I was naive, never knew where this would lead and I'm not trying to take away from the good man that he is but how do I let go when I've loved him for so long and I've given him all that I could. Was it something wrong that we did? Oh, cause others infiltrated. What went wrong with something once so good? How do you find the words to say, to say goodbye when your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye. Find the words to say goodbye. Is this the end? Are you sure? How should you know when you've never been here before? Its so hard to just let go when this is one and only love I've ever known. So how do you find the words to say, when its been so long, to say goodbye. When your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye. Find the words to say goodbye.
Here by me ~ 3 Doors Down
I hope you're doing fine out there without me cause Im not doing so good without you. Things I thought you'd never know about me, were the things I guess you always understood. So how could I have been so blind for all these years? Guess I only see the truth though all this fear living without you. Everything I have in this world and all that I'll ever be, it could fall down aruond me just as long as I have you right here by me. I cant tae another day without you cause baby I could never make it on my own. I've been waiting so long just to hold and you to be back here in your arms where I belong. Sorry i cant always find the words to say and everything I've ever known gets swept away inside of your love. Everything I have in this world and all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me just as long as I have you right here by me...
Goodbye ~ Alicia Keys
Bye Bye
How do you love someone that hurts you oh so bad. With intentions good was all he ever had. But how do I let go when I've loved him for so long and I've given him all that I could. Maybe love is a hopelss crime, giving up what seems a lifetime. What went wrong with something once so good? How do you find the words to say, to say goodbye when your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye? I know now I was naive, never knew where this would lead and I'm not trying to take away from the good man that he is but how do I let go when I've loved him for so long and I've given him all that I could. Was it something wrong that we did? Oh, cause others infiltrated. What went wrong with something once so good? How do you find the words to say, to say goodbye when your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye. Find the words to say goodbye. Is this the end? Are you sure? How should you know when you've never been here before? Its so hard to just let go when this is one and only love I've ever known. So how do you find the words to say, when its been so long, to say goodbye. When your heart dont have the heart to say, to say goodbye. Find the words to say goodbye.
Here by me ~ 3 Doors Down
I hope you're doing fine out there without me cause Im not doing so good without you. Things I thought you'd never know about me, were the things I guess you always understood. So how could I have been so blind for all these years? Guess I only see the truth though all this fear living without you. Everything I have in this world and all that I'll ever be, it could fall down aruond me just as long as I have you right here by me. I cant tae another day without you cause baby I could never make it on my own. I've been waiting so long just to hold and you to be back here in your arms where I belong. Sorry i cant always find the words to say and everything I've ever known gets swept away inside of your love. Everything I have in this world and all that I'll ever be, it could all fall down around me just as long as I have you right here by me...