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Today was not a good day. Starting with school but i don't really want to get into that at all. Let's just leave as school sucks majorly. Then as soon as I got home I was rushed around to hurry up get changed and eat something before going to a viewing for Sherwood Baker (a brave soldier who I say has a lot of courage and strength and I thank him for all that he has done) then after I went to the viewing for him i had to come home and then leave again to go to my Great Uncle Joey's viewing. Yeah 2 in one day. I was ok during Sherwood's for some of it but once I talked/saw my Great Aunt Chuchi Annie I started to cry but held it in til I got to my seat. It's liek as soon as I saw someone cry and thought about them not actually being there anymore I started to cry. Then I got some strength and I was ok. While at my Uncle's it was different not only b/c I knew/saw my uncle more and he was closer family. When I first walked in my uncle's grandson was there looking at my uncle and it just made me so sad b/c he use to do anything for him and talk about Zac(his grandson) all the time. Then when one of his friend's came in his friend was saying stuff like why did you have to go at such a young age and stuff li'k eI'll see you soon up there. So I start crying really bad. and the guy was talking for like felt like 5 minutes maybe less it felt longer. I could barely talk I wasn't ok until my dad came and I acted like I normally do kindof I talked a lot more. I dind't cry so I figure my dad is helpful when it comes for me to be strong. Cause as soon as he left to go home and I was with my mom I wanted to cry again. But I didn't. So as you can tell it wasn't a good day at all and tomorrow isn't going to be good at all either. Plus with what's going on in my life besides this stuff and school it's just been very stressful and I dunno. I'm just trying to take is one day at a time. I'm gonna go get some sleep or lay down sinc ei don't feel good and my tummy hurts. So who knows when the next time I'll write in here. Probably the next time I have time to. :( (R.I.P. Uncle Joey and Sherwood)