i fucked up!
there's nothing else i can say, except that i fucked up.
It's my own fault that chris isnt talking to me. for some reason i said i didnt want to be seen with him. when really he's the one who should have said i dont want to be seen with you. seeing as how i was completly gone.. i am suprised he stayed around me as long as he did. but thats what a true friend does.
as of right now.. i am thinking we will never be as close as we used to. i hope that he could forgive me, otherwise i lost a really good friend. and it's my own fault for being such an idiot.
i wouldnt be so upset about this if i didn't care about him. but i do.. and i wish he knew that. I am telling everyone right now, that at one point i think we were more than friends. i kept telling myself that i cant like someone right now... but that was because i wasnt over nick, i know now we will never be together. and i am fine with it. totally over him. i think i didnt want to admit that i liked chris because he was so good to me.. and i was scared of what the outcome could have been. i had my heartbroken once and wasnt ready to get it broken again.
Right now i wish i could take back farm fest and what i did. but i guess u have to learn from your mistakes. i know now, that i will never do that agian. EVER!
If your reading this chris. i am not ashmed to be seen with you or even talk to you. I could say i am sorry a million times and it wouldnt even compare to how u feel. I will say it a million and 1. I'm sorry! Now all i can do is wait.. and see if you will forgive me.
-AmBeR G
It's my own fault that chris isnt talking to me. for some reason i said i didnt want to be seen with him. when really he's the one who should have said i dont want to be seen with you. seeing as how i was completly gone.. i am suprised he stayed around me as long as he did. but thats what a true friend does.
as of right now.. i am thinking we will never be as close as we used to. i hope that he could forgive me, otherwise i lost a really good friend. and it's my own fault for being such an idiot.
i wouldnt be so upset about this if i didn't care about him. but i do.. and i wish he knew that. I am telling everyone right now, that at one point i think we were more than friends. i kept telling myself that i cant like someone right now... but that was because i wasnt over nick, i know now we will never be together. and i am fine with it. totally over him. i think i didnt want to admit that i liked chris because he was so good to me.. and i was scared of what the outcome could have been. i had my heartbroken once and wasnt ready to get it broken again.
Right now i wish i could take back farm fest and what i did. but i guess u have to learn from your mistakes. i know now, that i will never do that agian. EVER!
If your reading this chris. i am not ashmed to be seen with you or even talk to you. I could say i am sorry a million times and it wouldnt even compare to how u feel. I will say it a million and 1. I'm sorry! Now all i can do is wait.. and see if you will forgive me.
-AmBeR G