Holy Shitstorm, Batman.
Strange world, isn't it?
I asked the Universe for help in the coming months, to give me the courage to let go of my ego, my illusion of self-importance, my self-grasping. I do not expect this courage in a gift-wrapped little bluegreen box with white ribbon... in fact my perspective on "prayer" is not that it's a magically answered request for service, but that verbalizing or focusing on my intention will allow me to keep my mind opened to the myriad of solutions that the Universe has presented all along, even in unexpected places. Oh boy was today's blessing unexpected. Today has been one person after another after another slamming my performance, my abilities and my efforts. But this shitstorm, too, is holy.
My focus from now till I fall asleep...
To be grateful for today. To be thankful that today's descent into chaos gave me the opportunity to see my ego in action (hurt, "justice" seeking, ready to drop my core priorities to respond to other people's demands for "MOREMOREMOREMOREMORE"- which can be masked pretty effectively as "Just Enough"). To use my turbulence today to assist me in maintaining serenity in the future. To see, once again, that this will not be a painless process, but that these difficulties are my guides and teachers. To remember that as long as I am depend on other people's approval ratings (even those I deeply care about, and those who I mean to serve through my work), I will have little (no) hope of achieving this inner peace. And just cause I haven't said it out loud in a while...
Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The Courage to change the things that I can
And the Wisdom to tell the difference.
Namaste, y'all :)
I asked the Universe for help in the coming months, to give me the courage to let go of my ego, my illusion of self-importance, my self-grasping. I do not expect this courage in a gift-wrapped little bluegreen box with white ribbon... in fact my perspective on "prayer" is not that it's a magically answered request for service, but that verbalizing or focusing on my intention will allow me to keep my mind opened to the myriad of solutions that the Universe has presented all along, even in unexpected places. Oh boy was today's blessing unexpected. Today has been one person after another after another slamming my performance, my abilities and my efforts. But this shitstorm, too, is holy.
My focus from now till I fall asleep...
To be grateful for today. To be thankful that today's descent into chaos gave me the opportunity to see my ego in action (hurt, "justice" seeking, ready to drop my core priorities to respond to other people's demands for "MOREMOREMOREMOREMORE"- which can be masked pretty effectively as "Just Enough"). To use my turbulence today to assist me in maintaining serenity in the future. To see, once again, that this will not be a painless process, but that these difficulties are my guides and teachers. To remember that as long as I am depend on other people's approval ratings (even those I deeply care about, and those who I mean to serve through my work), I will have little (no) hope of achieving this inner peace. And just cause I haven't said it out loud in a while...
Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The Courage to change the things that I can
And the Wisdom to tell the difference.
Namaste, y'all :)