This weekend
- Spent 6.5 hours cleaning a dungeon
- Went to a Buddhist Book-Talk with Gen Kelsang Atisha. Learned that if we have problems with our world, we can either change everything in the universe to suit our minds, or change our minds to be at peace with the universe. PS, that does NOT mean being passive.
- Made chicken stew. Forgot to half the recipe again... anyone want some stew? Opened a bottle of non-alc White Zinfandel... just cause I decided to have a special occasion with myself. No, not a Betty-Dodson special occasion.
- Ended up at a Vagina party... freaky except for the Cutting of the Vagina Cake which was quite possibly the hottest thing I have seen all February. Ask me about it some time if you're not easily offended.
- Polished my boots. Droooolll thanks again fortryll!
- Went faggy clothes shopping with commaalex and another one of my favorite friends, and ate burgers and shakes at Johnny Rockets.
- Went to a "bootblacking as a top" workshop that had potential to be amazing... but ended up being like a train wreck. A really bad one.
- Saw some great friends that I miss a lot... saw someone who is in my life in complex ways. Realized that I no longer need to agnoize over this person's behavior and choices... I can choose to let that go. And I can mourn the loss of our relationship without feeling bad or stressing... I can mourn it from a serene place. It feels fucking good... it felt like closure, and had nothing to do with how he acted or didn't act. Good yoga-boy. Good Kadampa-boy.
- Had a great phone date with my Daddy that ended with really a really hot verbal exchange and permission to "use the thoughts freely" before i went to bed. Thank you, Daddy. Now, CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHERE TO FIND EXTRA SMALL LEATHER GLOVES ASAP!?!?!?
So i am a lucky boy. A lucky, lucky boy. Lucky to have glowcuffs and commaalex and fortryll and bbjim and leatherdyke friends who aren't on LJ. Lucky to have so much support in my life. Lucky, as a fortryll pointed out, that for the last six months i've been growing so much happier as a person. Lucky to have the courage to become a butterfly instead of being chucked off the top of the catepillar pillar ;)
Today is Valentine's day, and I am spending it with three friends in ways that are meaningful for me. I usually hate Valentine's Day... But my mind cannot change the existence of V-Day. I can, however, change my mind to peacefully coexist with the existence of V-day, and use my decision-making abilities to change how I experience V-day. And I am choosing to have a fucking fantastic one this year, even though the one i want to spend tonight with is 200 miles away.
Bliss.