Alot Of Thinking To Do...
Today has been a pretty simple day. I didn't do much fof anything but I did do a lot of thinking. Sometimes, I get hit pretty hard with reality and today was one of those days. I started thinking about what I am going to do when I graduate from college and where I want to start my career at. I thought a lot about it and I really want to live in New York, but something in my mind is telling me that I should start off small and work my way up. As of right now, I don't even have a job. It is getting really hard because I have bills to pay and I have no way to pay them. My mom has been pretty good about helping me out with my car payment and such, but I am realizing how bad I need a job. I have applied at places, but I never seem to get hired. I am starting to think that maybe my last job is givng me a bad reference. But I will continue my search and hopefully it will turn up with good results. My friend at school, Jarra, was talking last night about stress and how she has been really stressed lately as have I with all the bills and such. She said something that really hit me hard and made me do a lot of thinking. She said "Why do we stress? When we stress out about something, it is like we are not putting our faith in God." She is right. God does everything for a reason. He leads us in the right direction. So I just need to take things one day at a time. In the end, something good will come out of all of this and I will find the right job that pays good to take care of my bills. But I think that everyone should think about that the next time that you are stressing out about something. Let God take care of it for you. It will all work out in the end.