Hello, Long-neglected Livejournal.
Wow, it's really been awhile. Guess Lj had its time, and now it has been replaced by Facebook, and then Twitter. The images i had posted up are long gone and this feels like a cyber dumpsite. Still...
A new year. Another year. But the same problem - hitting another plateau, or should i say, a valley. Oh the joys of being stagnant again. There seems to be no way out, and work only makes me sink deep. Work, come home, msn with the boyfriend, late dinner, shower, goodnight call, wake up and rush for the train to get to work, rinse and repeat. Weekends? Much happier days with the boyfriend, but still. They're too short and too far apart, and with my limited time, i save it all for him. My social circle grows smaller still, and despite being almost certain that we will one day marry and have two kids (we have many random talks about the future, so i'm not just rambling on my own here hahah), something is still... missing. i have forgotten how to interact with others, and my limited circle of friends and acquaintances have dwindled to only himself, my sister, parents, and my coworkers. On the rare occasion that i make my way downtown to his house, his parents. C'est tout. *le sigh*
It's getting very late, and i am suppose to get up 4 hours later for work. At this point, photography alone is not enough to sustain my existence, and i must find meaning in life so that my conversation topics would not be limited to random stories about the boyfriend and the rabbit. Maybe it is better to keep quiet if i have nothing better to say, in which case i would grow more antisocial still. Why why why does the boyfriend improve and grow more confident and charming and achieve more at work and become a better and more loving person everyday, while i have my seasonal cycles, it seems? :'(
A new year. Another year. But the same problem - hitting another plateau, or should i say, a valley. Oh the joys of being stagnant again. There seems to be no way out, and work only makes me sink deep. Work, come home, msn with the boyfriend, late dinner, shower, goodnight call, wake up and rush for the train to get to work, rinse and repeat. Weekends? Much happier days with the boyfriend, but still. They're too short and too far apart, and with my limited time, i save it all for him. My social circle grows smaller still, and despite being almost certain that we will one day marry and have two kids (we have many random talks about the future, so i'm not just rambling on my own here hahah), something is still... missing. i have forgotten how to interact with others, and my limited circle of friends and acquaintances have dwindled to only himself, my sister, parents, and my coworkers. On the rare occasion that i make my way downtown to his house, his parents. C'est tout. *le sigh*
It's getting very late, and i am suppose to get up 4 hours later for work. At this point, photography alone is not enough to sustain my existence, and i must find meaning in life so that my conversation topics would not be limited to random stories about the boyfriend and the rabbit. Maybe it is better to keep quiet if i have nothing better to say, in which case i would grow more antisocial still. Why why why does the boyfriend improve and grow more confident and charming and achieve more at work and become a better and more loving person everyday, while i have my seasonal cycles, it seems? :'(