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today..
really excited to see Tom after this shitty ass weekend.. so i saw him at the begining of the day.. then 1st period my stomach was still flip flopsy so i only had one waffle thing.. they were ok.. then talked to Katie and Melissa Doty.. yeah.. whatever..
2nd period i took a test and i got 84 so oh well ill just do better my next one.. and we didn't do anything for the rest of the period.. i made fun of kevin that's about it..
3rd period saw JP and he gave me a big hug (thanks! i needed it..) so then i just sat there and did nothing but pull the fuzz ball things off of my shirt.. JP helped me.. then MS I yelled at us for doing that cause they were all over the floor.. then JP went and got me some food cause i had to eat.. no matter how much i didn't want to.. then i saw Tom so i took the pass out and i walked all the way to my locker.. for nothing.. then he almost missed his bus.. then went back into class and did nothing..
4th period took notes and did review things.. then we got dismissed early because Ms Jewel is a fuckin retard and will dismiss us for anything.. im not complaining.. then went to the buses and found Alli and i was gonna go home with her today but my mom didnt pick up.. crap.. i wanted to hit a certain someone today for giving me a nasty look but instead i just screamed your a stupid slut.. oh well.. shit happens.. what goes around comes around and it's gonna kick her in the ass so fuckin hard.. and i hope she gets so depressed over it that and she goes through so much hell.. i really do.. my cold hearted bitchiness is comin out and i really don't care cause SHE FUCKING DESERVES IT.. i hope she hits herself the head with her damn snowboard.. [[ wishfull thinking ]]..
so yeah get home and talked to Tom cause he was in voc.. then cleaned a little then did alot of nothing.. i got my chest pains back.. YIPPIE!! i AB-SO-FUCKING-LUTLEY LOVE my life right about now.. haha NOT.. so i fell to the floor freakin crying histerically because it hurt so bad.. then i threw up like 3 more times.. yanno just send me in the hospital and leave me there.. im gonna end up there when im like 80 anyway so why not just go 65 years early!..
i can't get my mind off of everything.. im freakin 15.. i should NOT be dealing with all of this bullshit drama going on.. i should not be depressed!! ALL THE TIME!!.. i miss my fuckin friends.. my OLD friends.. before everyone changed.. before everyone freakin FoRgOt about me!! oh well.. it'll all kick them in the ass later in life too when they realize they have no one to talk to because im the only one who they ever came to when they needed to spill their guts.. hah.. just fuhreakin wait.. oh god just wait.. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i love you Tom<33
x0 . pammy . 0x
really excited to see Tom after this shitty ass weekend.. so i saw him at the begining of the day.. then 1st period my stomach was still flip flopsy so i only had one waffle thing.. they were ok.. then talked to Katie and Melissa Doty.. yeah.. whatever..
2nd period i took a test and i got 84 so oh well ill just do better my next one.. and we didn't do anything for the rest of the period.. i made fun of kevin that's about it..
3rd period saw JP and he gave me a big hug (thanks! i needed it..) so then i just sat there and did nothing but pull the fuzz ball things off of my shirt.. JP helped me.. then MS I yelled at us for doing that cause they were all over the floor.. then JP went and got me some food cause i had to eat.. no matter how much i didn't want to.. then i saw Tom so i took the pass out and i walked all the way to my locker.. for nothing.. then he almost missed his bus.. then went back into class and did nothing..
4th period took notes and did review things.. then we got dismissed early because Ms Jewel is a fuckin retard and will dismiss us for anything.. im not complaining.. then went to the buses and found Alli and i was gonna go home with her today but my mom didnt pick up.. crap.. i wanted to hit a certain someone today for giving me a nasty look but instead i just screamed your a stupid slut.. oh well.. shit happens.. what goes around comes around and it's gonna kick her in the ass so fuckin hard.. and i hope she gets so depressed over it that and she goes through so much hell.. i really do.. my cold hearted bitchiness is comin out and i really don't care cause SHE FUCKING DESERVES IT.. i hope she hits herself the head with her damn snowboard.. [[ wishfull thinking ]]..
so yeah get home and talked to Tom cause he was in voc.. then cleaned a little then did alot of nothing.. i got my chest pains back.. YIPPIE!! i AB-SO-FUCKING-LUTLEY LOVE my life right about now.. haha NOT.. so i fell to the floor freakin crying histerically because it hurt so bad.. then i threw up like 3 more times.. yanno just send me in the hospital and leave me there.. im gonna end up there when im like 80 anyway so why not just go 65 years early!..
i can't get my mind off of everything.. im freakin 15.. i should NOT be dealing with all of this bullshit drama going on.. i should not be depressed!! ALL THE TIME!!.. i miss my fuckin friends.. my OLD friends.. before everyone changed.. before everyone freakin FoRgOt about me!! oh well.. it'll all kick them in the ass later in life too when they realize they have no one to talk to because im the only one who they ever came to when they needed to spill their guts.. hah.. just fuhreakin wait.. oh god just wait.. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i love you Tom<33
x0 . pammy . 0x