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Went tanning tonite! I have significant tanage thanks to being upgraded! Otherwise I want to vomit from stress I think. Had a rough day at work. but what else is new. I brainstormed social working skills my whole ride home from work to determine how to handle a situation. I think I have an appropriate solution. It is not going to be pleasant, but its the best I can do. I think what is really difficult about my job is not being able to please everyone. I hate when I have to e the bad guy or when things just can't work out. Cause sometimes bad things happen to good people. I should know that from experience! I just hate to be the bad person that is a reason for bad things happening. Well I am planning on eating some spaghetti o's and cleaning the living room. It is the easiest task for tonite and I am too mentally exhausted to deal with anything else. I will leave the difficult tasks for the mornings or this weekend. When I come home from work I just want to be numb and mindless. I can't listen to NPR at all anymore. It makes me want to jump out of my car into oncoming traffic or see if i can jump a snowbank and land on some male republicans. It would be for a good cause.
Anyway thank god for our mini vacas! They are what save me. And also LJ. Thank you LJ and everyone who reads this for bearing the brunt of my suicidality! And thank you Erin, Christine, and Cassie! What would I do if I could not share my life with you. And thanks for being judgemental, yet accepting! Thats as emotional as it gets with me I think! hehe.
Ok weekend plans..here is a suggestion, we can go from here:
friday night
no plans for me
saturday
i pick up cassie from regis
don't have money to do shopping just yet
afternoon is up in the air...
pizza
evening slumber party at my place? (including wine, grapes and lots of cheese?)
card games, tarot readings, hair dying? (me and anyone else interested), and glamour photo shots
sunday
breakfast at brighton cafe?
then i will be off to babysit (leaveing at 11am and returning at 6pm)
6:30 pm watch Tom Brady, shout at the tv, eat baked nachos with cheese and drink a few beers
if you want to do this at my apartment i can give you guys a set of keys and you can get situated while i am on my way back from sitting...
Anyway thank god for our mini vacas! They are what save me. And also LJ. Thank you LJ and everyone who reads this for bearing the brunt of my suicidality! And thank you Erin, Christine, and Cassie! What would I do if I could not share my life with you. And thanks for being judgemental, yet accepting! Thats as emotional as it gets with me I think! hehe.
Ok weekend plans..here is a suggestion, we can go from here:
friday night
no plans for me
saturday
i pick up cassie from regis
don't have money to do shopping just yet
afternoon is up in the air...
pizza
evening slumber party at my place? (including wine, grapes and lots of cheese?)
card games, tarot readings, hair dying? (me and anyone else interested), and glamour photo shots
sunday
breakfast at brighton cafe?
then i will be off to babysit (leaveing at 11am and returning at 6pm)
6:30 pm watch Tom Brady, shout at the tv, eat baked nachos with cheese and drink a few beers
if you want to do this at my apartment i can give you guys a set of keys and you can get situated while i am on my way back from sitting...