Infectious Whine
I am so freaking upset. I blame that nasty nursing home. Y'now, when people aren't wiping urine off the floor, someone is bound to get sick. I got a little sore throat last Thursday and thought nothing of it. It got worse. I thought it'd pass in a few days. Well, the sore throat still lingers just a bit but now I have a fever, a disgusting chest congestion, and I've completely lost my voice. I had plans, phone calls to make, and appointments before I left to Miami, and now not only can I not be the productive person I want to be, but I doubt I'll be able to go to Miami either. NOT FAIR. Lana is getting married and I'm not going to get to see it! I really wanted to go. I know how excited I am about my own day and that's her day to shine. A wedding is seeing someone on a day all about them when they look incredibly beautiful and infinitely happy. Her mother put a lot of work into the wedding- I think Lana had her dress made especially for her. I haven't seen Warren or Kristen in a year- now I don't know if I'll get to see them either. Kristen is my maid of honor and I haven't seen her! Maybe I'll just to fly out to Oregon if she'll have me. I'm whining. I'm so freaking upset. I can't even call to tell them, which feels so incredibly rude. I woke up at 4 a.m. feeling horrible and started pumping myself full of meds and hot tea with honey. There's still a shred of hope I'll be well enough to go Thursday. My grandma offered to buy me a plane ticket so I could go last minute.
Chris wanted to go down and see his family Wednesday- I told him to go ahead and try to go even if I can't. I want him to see his family very badly- family is such an important thing to me and it's the holidays. I wanted to spend either Thanksgiving, Christmas, or new years with them this year, but it's such a rough, busy time. I feel like such a stupid girl who doesn't have herself together. I really don't. Not yet. I'm trying really hard to get there so that one day I can be the adult I want to be. I want to send Christmas cards and such and I didn't even realize that Christmas is less than a week away. Our tree is sitting in the living room absolutely bare. We haven't had time for Christmas at all and I know we need to make the time.
Blah.
Don't mind my rants. There are a lot of bright things going on too. I'll talk about them later. I've finished my tea so I'm going back to sleep.
Chris wanted to go down and see his family Wednesday- I told him to go ahead and try to go even if I can't. I want him to see his family very badly- family is such an important thing to me and it's the holidays. I wanted to spend either Thanksgiving, Christmas, or new years with them this year, but it's such a rough, busy time. I feel like such a stupid girl who doesn't have herself together. I really don't. Not yet. I'm trying really hard to get there so that one day I can be the adult I want to be. I want to send Christmas cards and such and I didn't even realize that Christmas is less than a week away. Our tree is sitting in the living room absolutely bare. We haven't had time for Christmas at all and I know we need to make the time.
Blah.
Don't mind my rants. There are a lot of bright things going on too. I'll talk about them later. I've finished my tea so I'm going back to sleep.