Train Wreck
Sometimes, your life is so much of a train wreck that you just can't look away. I was going back in this journal searching for something specific that spawned out of a 3 hour conversation tonight and I realized that a majority of the time I kept journals, my life was a train wreck. Honestly. And when I go back and look for something specific, I cannot look away. I find myself reading continuously, wondering what the hell I was thinking.
My life is still a train wreck. I just stopped writing about it.
I wonder why that is. Writing used to soothe me and then I just ... stopped. Maybe I ran out of time or maybe I just stopped caring but I always seemed to feel better when I wrote about it. So maybe I'll keep writing about it. That way in another 5 years (there's your hint to what I was looking for) I'll look back in this journal to find it. Very soon I will have -technically- been keeping a journal online for an entire decade. Not this specific one, mind you, but I started writing online when I was 16. I literally have a good majority of 10 years of my life written down and posted on the internet. And people still read my crap for some reason. Honestly, I don't think I'm that entertaining.
Maybe they think I'm a train wreck too.
My life is still a train wreck. I just stopped writing about it.
I wonder why that is. Writing used to soothe me and then I just ... stopped. Maybe I ran out of time or maybe I just stopped caring but I always seemed to feel better when I wrote about it. So maybe I'll keep writing about it. That way in another 5 years (there's your hint to what I was looking for) I'll look back in this journal to find it. Very soon I will have -technically- been keeping a journal online for an entire decade. Not this specific one, mind you, but I started writing online when I was 16. I literally have a good majority of 10 years of my life written down and posted on the internet. And people still read my crap for some reason. Honestly, I don't think I'm that entertaining.
Maybe they think I'm a train wreck too.