So much emotion
I have to dedicate this post to Kris cause I know that she will understand the mushy in it...
Anyways...
I am totally in like with a guy.. and he is leaving soon. He has become so much to me. A friend and a confidant. I hate it cause he lives in Alberta and he is not sure if he is comming back. I am kinda heart broken, but I know that this may be the best thing for him. He means so much to me, and I do not want to seem pathetic crying over him. I did that tonight while sitting in his vehicle. He wanted to know what was wrong and I could not tell him. We are going to spend most of the weekend together, and then hopefully time on Monday night after I get off work. I hope. I have tuesday off and that is probably a good thing cause I think I am going to be a mess. I just do not understand how one person can bring me so much faith. He totally believes in me, in everything about me.. Any dream that I could ever think of he is always right there encourgaging me to go for it. He is even thinking of helping me to get more education so that I can do what I want to do. I feel like I am losing my best friend. I know that I will get phone calls from Alberta but it is not the same as being able to see the person, and talk to them when you need them. It is going to be strange and I do hope that he comes back.
I am just an emotional reck right now and this is just making it worse. I am so not sure what I am going to do from here. But I know that I feel like I am losing someone very important to me, though I know that God will take care of everything.
Well that is it for now.