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everyone will eventually find someone better than me.
i hate that i believe this... but i can't help it.
i don't think i have ever trusted anyone enough to believe that they might find me to be invaluable, that i am someone who they feel belongs in their life.
in the end... i will be alone. i have always felt this. and i can't say it doesn't bother me, because it does.
does everyone give up on me sooner or later? and why.
i'm sick and tired of always having to be the one who shows emotion, or makes the effort, the one who tries to not fade.
it's so tiring. i am worn out...
it would be really nice if everyone would do what they say, and say what they mean.
all i want is for someone to show me that they actually care...
but i guess that's too much to ask.
(i'm not exactly feeling great, obviously.)
nights like these, i can't sleep. at all.
tomorrow night = time to distract myself.
i hate that i believe this... but i can't help it.
i don't think i have ever trusted anyone enough to believe that they might find me to be invaluable, that i am someone who they feel belongs in their life.
in the end... i will be alone. i have always felt this. and i can't say it doesn't bother me, because it does.
does everyone give up on me sooner or later? and why.
i'm sick and tired of always having to be the one who shows emotion, or makes the effort, the one who tries to not fade.
it's so tiring. i am worn out...
it would be really nice if everyone would do what they say, and say what they mean.
all i want is for someone to show me that they actually care...
but i guess that's too much to ask.
(i'm not exactly feeling great, obviously.)
nights like these, i can't sleep. at all.
tomorrow night = time to distract myself.