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i hate to admit this, but i will actually be kind of disappointed if this 'holiday' goes by without any recognition.
i am frustrated that i actually acknowledge such 'fake' holidays as valentine's day... especially when there are so many other things worldwide that are so much more important than another waste-producing holiday that only 20% (the percentage of the population with expendable cash, and not in poverty) of the world's population can really revel in.
but stil, i find myself here. i hope he likes what i put together though, because i actually do care that he might have something to look forward to. i don't understand why everyone thinks valentine's day is a girl's holiday, i mean... doesn't that make it kind of a bit of a jip for guys then?
i think it should be kind of equal, i'd feel wrong about the whole thing if it wasn't...
sometimes i actually wish i could be one of those people who was given something and then didn't immediately feel guilty or unequal about it after. i have issues with presents (no matter what occasion) simply because it feels weird to get something and not give something, or have the other person be a part of what you are getting... i wish i could stop feeling paranoid/awkward about this.
i sort of think i am not worth anyone's gifts to me... it's a negative thought, i know... but i've somewhat always felt weird like that.
i am frustrated that i actually acknowledge such 'fake' holidays as valentine's day... especially when there are so many other things worldwide that are so much more important than another waste-producing holiday that only 20% (the percentage of the population with expendable cash, and not in poverty) of the world's population can really revel in.
but stil, i find myself here. i hope he likes what i put together though, because i actually do care that he might have something to look forward to. i don't understand why everyone thinks valentine's day is a girl's holiday, i mean... doesn't that make it kind of a bit of a jip for guys then?
i think it should be kind of equal, i'd feel wrong about the whole thing if it wasn't...
sometimes i actually wish i could be one of those people who was given something and then didn't immediately feel guilty or unequal about it after. i have issues with presents (no matter what occasion) simply because it feels weird to get something and not give something, or have the other person be a part of what you are getting... i wish i could stop feeling paranoid/awkward about this.
i sort of think i am not worth anyone's gifts to me... it's a negative thought, i know... but i've somewhat always felt weird like that.