Why do i feel like this??
Why Do I Feel Like This???...i feel like i dont belong sometimes...like i dont know how to explain it...like all of my friends are great but i feel like i dont belong...i feel like an outkast....i dont know this is hard for me to say..i dont feel good about myself i know i need to lose weight and need to carry myself in a better way like all of my friends are pretty...i dont feel that way..like they all have boyfriends and i have been sigle for like 2 years ever since like 9th grade the jerk of a bf i had cheated on me i havent been able to put myself out like i use to be able to...i dont know like i tell ppl that i like them and he start to talk and i put all of me into it and it turns around to bite me in the ass (bobby).....i dont know i guess i have bad luck wit guys..i feel so despressed [sp?]...like i act like a whole def person then i am in person i try to hide what i really feel and do show the really me...only to certain ppl (da crew)..like they know the really kristin....i just dont show my real side due to the fact that i dont want to be shined away...[tear*tear]....i hope what i write in here dosnt turn around and bite me in the ass...i feel so unhappy about my life....i wish i could be like an normal teen amd be happy go lucky about everything but that is not the case...like i feel like i am felt out of stuff...like not have a dad and all my freinds talking about thiers dads and then i talk about how they hate there dads and all i think about is well atleast u have a dad..like i dont even know my dad like he doesnt want to have anything to do wut me a dn randall...like he didnt want us in the frist place....like thier are so many things that i want to do wit me life but i know that i cant do that cuz my mom is a single parnet and she cant do it all by herself... i dont know and ppl dont make that any better ppl are always talking about you making fun of u and putting u down and telling u that u have to be a certain way....and always feeling lonely doesnt really help either....having no one to talk too....
i know yall are tried of me bitching so i am goin to go to bed