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This morning was horrible.. I didn’t sleep last night I couldn’t and my pain medication isn’t working but I’ve missed too many days of school so I had to go to school anyways I cried the whole way it was so hard to drive because I was in severe pain and the only thing my pain medication was doing was making me sleepy I almost fell asleep 6 times on my way to school.. And I am bleeding again.. but I only went to school for half a class period now I am home.. I called my mommy crying so she let me go home.. Well I got my results yesterday.. its not cancer or any other diseases so what is it?? I have no idea and when my doctor explains it to me I just get even more confused.. so basically what it is a bunch of cells that grouped together there’s 6 bumps they are huge.. but they are all on my cervical wall and it is unknown of whether not or they are in my uterus too.. Well I was scared to death thinking I’m gonna die well I found out that it is very comment among teenaged girls and that makes me happy and the fact that I’m not dying makes me happy.. my surgery is tomorrow!!! I am so scared… its gonna hurt I get to miss a week of school.. yay!!! Oh my goodness I forgot I have a detention and I’m suspended the day I come back to school.. I got the detention for missing too many days and not having notes from my mommy and I got suspended for my outfits.. I guess my skirts are too short and tops are too revealing but whatever I don’t care its spring and my cheerleading skirt is shorter than most of the skirts I’ve worn to school so are they or are they not being hypocrites actually the only reason I get in trouble is because boys at my school are perverts!! If they weren’t sick little boys I wouldn’t be in trouble.. why is it only me who gets in trouble? I saw this girl at school today who is like 5 feet 200 pounds and she was wearing a skirt that showed half her ass!!! And her boobs were everywhere it was disgusting so why didn’t she get in trouble?? Its not fair!!! So I’m thinking about quitting modeling I just don’t feel like doing it anymore its no fun..
Well its nap time for me
Love
Sarah
P.s. I love Ian!!! I am so fucking deeply in love with IAN!!!! He is the best smelling boy in this world.. I love him lots