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"Now all I have to do is keep all of my dumbass ex's out of my life and I'll be fine." ...Ouch
I guess...she's over me. I'm sure she only says she doesn't know if she's still in love with me or not, is to keep me from hurting. Saturday is one month since everything started to hurt, and if all goes as planned I'll be at carowind's with her at the time that it happened. That's going to be weird. I guess I'll be fine if Daylon's dad doesn't decide to let him go. It hurts so fucking bad to see her do all things she used to do with me, with him. Last time I went to carowind's with her, I fucking hurt her, and I felt bad. But we made up, and it was great. We almost fell out of the bus seats just so we could cuddle.
I just wish... I wish I could have had another chance...or something. If I would have known she was hurting so bad...maybe I could have done something. It's just.... it's been so fucking much. I'm fucking in love with this girl. I just wish it wouldn't have left me so quickly. I wish she was still in love...so I might have a chance. But I guess I can't change how she feels.
I guess I'll just wait. I promised I would. She's the fucking love of my life. She's everything to me. I hope she misses me. Because I miss the fuck out of her.
Pigeon
I guess...she's over me. I'm sure she only says she doesn't know if she's still in love with me or not, is to keep me from hurting. Saturday is one month since everything started to hurt, and if all goes as planned I'll be at carowind's with her at the time that it happened. That's going to be weird. I guess I'll be fine if Daylon's dad doesn't decide to let him go. It hurts so fucking bad to see her do all things she used to do with me, with him. Last time I went to carowind's with her, I fucking hurt her, and I felt bad. But we made up, and it was great. We almost fell out of the bus seats just so we could cuddle.
I just wish... I wish I could have had another chance...or something. If I would have known she was hurting so bad...maybe I could have done something. It's just.... it's been so fucking much. I'm fucking in love with this girl. I just wish it wouldn't have left me so quickly. I wish she was still in love...so I might have a chance. But I guess I can't change how she feels.
I guess I'll just wait. I promised I would. She's the fucking love of my life. She's everything to me. I hope she misses me. Because I miss the fuck out of her.
Pigeon