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Well Steve left Friday morning for Rhode Island and I just can't deal with it. I actually haven't seen him since Thursday because after his basketball practice he went and slept over this kid on him teams house because they were leaving so early. To top it off, I didn't even really get to spend time with him on Thursday cause he decided he didn't want to go to school. So I saw him for about 3 hours before he left. And he told me that he would call me everyday (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday) and so far he's only called me once on Saturday at like 1030 am. And I'm really upset about it. I really miss him. It's so hard to fall asleep with him not there and I really hate going throughout the day not knowing what he's doing or who he's doing it with or why he isn't calling. I mean, he called me once from his friend's cell phone so he can obviously call somehow. And I know he hasn't been playing basketball 24 hours in the day. So I just don't understand. He's coming home today, but I don't know what time or anything. And I just have a feeling that he won't be coming home today. Like he'll come home tomorrow or something during the day and won't even be able to go to school, and that will really piss me off. I mean, I'm happy he's doing good with all this basketball and everything and I think he has a really good shot at making it, but sometimes I just feel like he's going to or is forgetting about me. And I just don't wanna be left out of his life. And so much stuff is going on now with like his mom and stuff and it's like so hard that he has to leave for Rhode Island right in the middle of it and right when I'm hurt the most about everything. I know it's not his fault he had to go, and I would never tell him to stay home and basically forget about basketball. But I mean, even though he's there he doesn't have to cut me off completly and not call me at all. It's hard dealing with this cause I never really had to before, even though last year he went away but it was different. I always got to talk to him when he left and everything.
I mean, it's not like I've just been sitting around the house doing nothing. I've been trying to keep myself occupied. Like Friday I went tanning with Melissa then later that night I went walking around with Liane, Melissa, Tim, and Danny then we went back to Mel's and Nicole came over and we played Cranium. I had a really good time and it was super fun. Then on Saturday I went tanning with Melissa and Danny. Then we went to TJ Max to visit Nicole and after I went back to Melissa's. After that me, Mel, Rach, and Liane went walking around and stuff. And then me and Rachael went back to Liane's and just talked. I'm really glad too cause They understand everything and Liane is going through the same thing with Nadeah cause she can never see her or anything, so it's like she understands. And Rachael understands too cause we're all the same when it comes to our relationships. Like we would pick our boyfriends/girlfriend over anyone because we love them. And I'm really glad I finally have people that can understand that and feel the way I do. I love them
Well I'm gonna go do something I guess, I don't know. Byee
I mean, it's not like I've just been sitting around the house doing nothing. I've been trying to keep myself occupied. Like Friday I went tanning with Melissa then later that night I went walking around with Liane, Melissa, Tim, and Danny then we went back to Mel's and Nicole came over and we played Cranium. I had a really good time and it was super fun. Then on Saturday I went tanning with Melissa and Danny. Then we went to TJ Max to visit Nicole and after I went back to Melissa's. After that me, Mel, Rach, and Liane went walking around and stuff. And then me and Rachael went back to Liane's and just talked. I'm really glad too cause They understand everything and Liane is going through the same thing with Nadeah cause she can never see her or anything, so it's like she understands. And Rachael understands too cause we're all the same when it comes to our relationships. Like we would pick our boyfriends/girlfriend over anyone because we love them. And I'm really glad I finally have people that can understand that and feel the way I do. I love them
Well I'm gonna go do something I guess, I don't know. Byee