you'll find beauty...in the toughest of places
It's been a while since I've written in here, and I am sorry. I guess I maybe grew out of it, or no one read it. Regardless I am updating now because so much as happened.
Maggie and I are no longer friends.
She changed so much, I think we just grew apart.
She stopped talking to me and started acting like she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Over the Christmas break I appologized for stuff I didn't do, in an effort to save the friendship. We were fine for a couple of days but, once we got back to school she went back to being a bitch. It's like I'm not good enough for her anymore. I tried a million times to fix things but I guess this time was really it. So I took down all the pictures and stuff that I had up in my room of us, and I need to buy a little box to put them away in. I'm not going to get rid of them, because we did have some good times. I just don't want to look at them and get sad because we won't have anymore of them. It was a long time coming I suppose. Oh, she also sent me an email saying, "i'm not going to talk about it at school, on msn, or work" (we both work at sears - but I am looking for another job - not because of her though.) Hopefully this is all for the best.
I am no longer single!
Dan and I (you may remember me talking about him from my Bulldogs stories last year) have been dating since New Years - we were seeing each other before that though. We went to a bunch of concerts and stuff. I'm really happy though, and he's so good to me! It's weird having a guy in my life who isn't a complete tool. I sometimes wonder what he's doing with me, why he's dating me and stuff...just because of how i've been treated in the past i sometimes think i'm not good enough for anyone...but that passes. But for now, I know things are great.
I am almost done highschool!
Even though I'll be graduating with no best friend, I'm excited for prom and graduation. I am excited for my new adventure!
I'm taking a year off to work. maybe do some travelling. I can't wait to be out of this school and get on with my life.
People say they never want it to end, I can't wait to be gone. I've never liked highschool and since September I've just been going through the motions, getting good grades and being me. I am not wishing the next few months away because I know it's all I have left with some of my friends - but at the same time, I'm over the whole "highschool is the best time of your life" stereotype. I'm not one to join clubs, I'm playing sports anymore. I just wanna do my own thing.
Basically ...
I'm starting over ... I'm a whole new girl ... I've had a million different options running through my head about my future. I've thought about maybe becoming a teacher, but I love the sport industry. We'll see!
I've learned who my friends are - and who they aren't.
I sometimes get lonely. I don't drink anymore.
I still wish at 11:11. I still fight with my parents & brother, not as much but it still happens. like today, no one is talking me to. but it'll pass.
I hope to update more often..but right now Fraiser wants a walk and I need to get out of the house.
love&laughter,
xx
Maggie and I are no longer friends.
She changed so much, I think we just grew apart.
She stopped talking to me and started acting like she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Over the Christmas break I appologized for stuff I didn't do, in an effort to save the friendship. We were fine for a couple of days but, once we got back to school she went back to being a bitch. It's like I'm not good enough for her anymore. I tried a million times to fix things but I guess this time was really it. So I took down all the pictures and stuff that I had up in my room of us, and I need to buy a little box to put them away in. I'm not going to get rid of them, because we did have some good times. I just don't want to look at them and get sad because we won't have anymore of them. It was a long time coming I suppose. Oh, she also sent me an email saying, "i'm not going to talk about it at school, on msn, or work" (we both work at sears - but I am looking for another job - not because of her though.) Hopefully this is all for the best.
I am no longer single!
Dan and I (you may remember me talking about him from my Bulldogs stories last year) have been dating since New Years - we were seeing each other before that though. We went to a bunch of concerts and stuff. I'm really happy though, and he's so good to me! It's weird having a guy in my life who isn't a complete tool. I sometimes wonder what he's doing with me, why he's dating me and stuff...just because of how i've been treated in the past i sometimes think i'm not good enough for anyone...but that passes. But for now, I know things are great.
I am almost done highschool!
Even though I'll be graduating with no best friend, I'm excited for prom and graduation. I am excited for my new adventure!
I'm taking a year off to work. maybe do some travelling. I can't wait to be out of this school and get on with my life.
People say they never want it to end, I can't wait to be gone. I've never liked highschool and since September I've just been going through the motions, getting good grades and being me. I am not wishing the next few months away because I know it's all I have left with some of my friends - but at the same time, I'm over the whole "highschool is the best time of your life" stereotype. I'm not one to join clubs, I'm playing sports anymore. I just wanna do my own thing.
Basically ...
I'm starting over ... I'm a whole new girl ... I've had a million different options running through my head about my future. I've thought about maybe becoming a teacher, but I love the sport industry. We'll see!
I've learned who my friends are - and who they aren't.
I sometimes get lonely. I don't drink anymore.
I still wish at 11:11. I still fight with my parents & brother, not as much but it still happens. like today, no one is talking me to. but it'll pass.
I hope to update more often..but right now Fraiser wants a walk and I need to get out of the house.
love&laughter,
xx