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anymore i feel helpless... abandoned and alone. i guess thats what happens when you take on the world by yourself.
college begins in the fall, and while i'm looking forward to it i am also enraged. i look back on my childhood and all the memories i should have....they were great up until the divorce. poor me. self pitty is wasted. yet i will continue for lack of interest in anything else at the present moment. i feel my parents utterly screwd me over and tore out everything good about me and spread it in front of the world to be trampled over. this pain inside eats at me and i feel relentless and heartbroken and vengeful. who really has the right to take away a persons life. and to this point, and from what i can remember my parents have taken it with selfishness. and with great releif and almost great suprise i say fuck them.
college begins in the fall, and while i'm looking forward to it i am also enraged. i look back on my childhood and all the memories i should have....they were great up until the divorce. poor me. self pitty is wasted. yet i will continue for lack of interest in anything else at the present moment. i feel my parents utterly screwd me over and tore out everything good about me and spread it in front of the world to be trampled over. this pain inside eats at me and i feel relentless and heartbroken and vengeful. who really has the right to take away a persons life. and to this point, and from what i can remember my parents have taken it with selfishness. and with great releif and almost great suprise i say fuck them.