How you gonna act like that..
Okay, so I said my new years resolution was to get rid of Mike. I said that all out of anger. So okay, new years eve night I stayed the night and hung out with Rachel. But before the night was up or whatever I had talked to Mike on his lunch and we were just fighting like crazy. The truth in me came out. I was so tired of everything Mike was doing it wasn't even funny. Well, he found out how I really felt about him going over to his brothers all the time and everything. That's obviously not changing because I told him I wanted to go to the movies with him Friday night and he's like 'can we do it saturday night?' I was like 'why?' he's like 'cause I'm staying at my brothers' god I fucking hate Mike so much. I asked him at the beginning of the week if he had any plans on friday and he said no. So that's why I picked friday and then he's like I've had plans to go to my brothers all week. See he's just bullshitting me around. I'm so sick of it. I feel like he's lying to me about something big. I think he may be cheating on me. I don't know how he would cause I know where he is all the time. But, he could skip school and go over to some girls house and do I don't know what or I don't know who. But he said he doesn't skip school and he's only missed 2 days of school cause he's been sick and those are days I know about. I hate feeling like he's cheating on me. I've tried to get over my jealousy. Well anyways. He was going to stay at his brothers house and we fought the whole time then he wouldn't even tell me he loved me when he got off the phone. So Rachel made him. Well I waited for Rachel to get out of work at 7 cause she was picking me up so I put the Newlyweds DVD in and started watching it and I was watching the interview and it was Nick talking about how much in love with Jessica he is. And as I'm thinking ' I wish Mike adored me as much as he adores Jessica' Rachel pulls up. She comes in and I'm sitting on the couch she's like close your eyes I'm like for why? she's like close your eyes. So I do I open them and she's holding a rose and she's like 'its from mike he said he's sorry for everything' I started crying. So we left and Kasey (the girl we was babysitting for) called so we went to meijers to pick up some cherry coke and RIGHT as I walked in middle door at Meijer Mike 2-ways me. I told him to come visit me back in the pop aisle so he gets there and asks me if I got the 'flower' and rachel was like 'ITS A ROSE' I was like yeah, thank you then I gave him a kiss. Well okay that was new years eve. Now tonight this all started after school I said something about him losing feelings towards me and he's like 'just cause you said it I am' and dadadada I'm thinking okay you're such an asshole why am I even with you? you only think about yourself. Then he 2 ways me on his break and I asked him how he got something and how he got money for it and he's like don't worry about it. I'm like I'm gonna worry about it when you told me the other day you didn't have any money for icecream and I payed for yours and you said you'd pay me back on thursday. So we got into an argument. Hes such a fucking asshole anymore I can't stand it. He's just making me more and more depressed it's not even funny. I want to let go but I love him so much. I don't know what to do cause I've never been in a situation like this before. Where my boyfriend is such an asshole. But sometimes he can be so sweet. Well I think I'm done being nice to him for a while. See how he likes it. I'm more of the guy in the relationship then he is, I pay for everything (we both have jobs), I open doors for him at like the mall and stuff. I figure out when we're gonna go to dinner and where at ..it's like I MAKE ALL THE DECISIONS. I don't like that I like it to be mutual. I know I'm a leo and leo's are dominant. But, I'm not that dominant jesus christ let me be a female.