lalalalaaa don't phunk with my heart
apparently ella thinks that things have gotten interesting and that i should update, i do not agree, but will keep her happy with a boring entry:
shiver-y, thats the way i feel right now, my whole body is tingling about how the next two weeks are going to play out - fear, sadness, anxiety. 2 more weeks of rec, 2 more weeks til jay leaves. what happens then? i hate how plans fall through, i hate how we can't be alone together, i hate how he is sad, i hate even more that i can't do anything to make him change his mind, or feel better, or even love me. its all so futile, but i keep pining away. eventually i'll forget him, i'll only think about him once in awhile, instead of every other thought. (i'm insane i know this) i hate getting dressed up to go nowhere.
i'm giving up, i'm giving up slowly, i'm blending in so you won't even know me....because i gotta get outta here, i'm stuck here in this rut that i feel into by mistake so i gotta get outta here and i'm begging you i'm begging you i'm begging you to be my escape
shiver-y, thats the way i feel right now, my whole body is tingling about how the next two weeks are going to play out - fear, sadness, anxiety. 2 more weeks of rec, 2 more weeks til jay leaves. what happens then? i hate how plans fall through, i hate how we can't be alone together, i hate how he is sad, i hate even more that i can't do anything to make him change his mind, or feel better, or even love me. its all so futile, but i keep pining away. eventually i'll forget him, i'll only think about him once in awhile, instead of every other thought. (i'm insane i know this) i hate getting dressed up to go nowhere.
i'm giving up, i'm giving up slowly, i'm blending in so you won't even know me....because i gotta get outta here, i'm stuck here in this rut that i feel into by mistake so i gotta get outta here and i'm begging you i'm begging you i'm begging you to be my escape