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[sweet_kisses08]

Since it's been almost an entire month since I've updated this bad boy, I figured it was time! I've been really busy with school, softball conditioning, boys and I just recently added work into my schedule! The boys category tends to be taking up most of my time lately. Joey and I are still on a "break" and to tell you the truth, as of right now I'm not sure we're ever going to get back together. It's a long complicated story that I don't even feel like getting into. However, I'm slowly but surely falling for a guy at school =/ I don't want to.. but then again I do. He makes me feel so much better about myself than I've felt in a long time. I just feel like I can be myself around him. I've told him things that no one else knows.. not even Stacey. I can just open up to him. I think that's why it hurt me so much when he screwed me over pretty much. I don't really feel like going into details about it, because it just upsets me. I told Julz pretty much the whole story in a comment on one of her entries, so if you really want to know, go there! (juliaspell) School has been going well. My classes are incredibly easy, but everyone says they only get harder. I'm up for the challenge though.. I think. Softball conditioning.. whoo boy, now that's another story! Melissa (the teams personal trainer) is kicking my ass! We lift on Monday, Wednesday, Friday from 4:30-5:30 and I've never sweated or worked so hard in my life. Normally when I would work out for softball I would slack off, but I really want to get into shape and get myself back to what I used to look like around the beginning of my junior year. I miss being so skinny and in shape! =/ Plus we're getting a new coach who knows nothing about any of us, so I'm going to bust my ass and try to get a starting position.. whether that gets my ass beat or not LOL! Plus, every Sunday we go spinning (which is an intense form of cycling for those of you who don't know) and that is killer! I'm telling you.. if you've never been, and someone asks if you want to go.. RUN AWAY! It is torture! You ride a bike for 40 minutes.. STRAIGHT! It is a work-out though.. you burn 800-1000 calories everytime you do it.. and sweat like it's your freakin job! Anyway, I still have 25 our of my 45 forensic science questions to answer, and I still have all my work reports to run and look over =/ Maybe I'll update again before a month goes by.. hehe! =D

**Julz, you never let me know what you thought of Brandon's pictures.. !!!!**