i am an emotional masochist
the moment you realize you have so many things to do for tomorrow and don't see an end to them.
and now i'm writing my paper on being muslim in bosnia during the war through a gender lens. and oh god. so many feelings. my brain and my heart are breaking. i can't take it. why do i do this to myself?! i'm basically a combination of these two:
SO MANY FEELINGS.
no sleep tonight, most likely. it's ok. i'll deal with it.
and to make matters worse, i had a fight with ben last friday? yeah. i think it was friday. ugh. whatever. i haven't spoken to him since. but he made a comment in one of my links and i don't know if it's his way of apologizing or not. if we're going to be friends, we have to be honest with ea other again and i don't think we're there yet. wish i didn't give a fuck, but i do.
won't deal with it now. i have papers to worry about.
and now i'm writing my paper on being muslim in bosnia during the war through a gender lens. and oh god. so many feelings. my brain and my heart are breaking. i can't take it. why do i do this to myself?! i'm basically a combination of these two:
SO MANY FEELINGS.
no sleep tonight, most likely. it's ok. i'll deal with it.
and to make matters worse, i had a fight with ben last friday? yeah. i think it was friday. ugh. whatever. i haven't spoken to him since. but he made a comment in one of my links and i don't know if it's his way of apologizing or not. if we're going to be friends, we have to be honest with ea other again and i don't think we're there yet. wish i didn't give a fuck, but i do.
won't deal with it now. i have papers to worry about.