Its been a long long long time...
Okay, so I know that I really do need to update and at this time I have ALOT to say. Because there are alot of things that are on my mind right now that really do need to be talked about. Maybe I well get the change to say them.. Who knows..
I don't know what to do.. i'm talking to this guy. And its like he can't decide if he wants to be with me or not. It's freaking killing me. Last night he called me and let me a message on my voicemail. He told me that he really does love me and that he has been thinking about me alot in the last few weeks that we haven't been together. And that he has learned from the mistakes that he has made. And that he really does want to be with me. But I don't really know what to do. Because he has done this before... so I don't really know what to think. What am I going to do? I really do love him.. When I first started telling him that I loved him he didn't believe me. And know he's like "I LOVE YOU" and I want to be with you. So, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?!?! HELP ME SOMEBODY!!
I am sick and tired of people thinking that I am a big pushover. And that I am only good for babysitting. My best friend is doing that to me. It's like she doesn't even want to be my friend anymore.. and that all she wants me for is to babysit ZacKary. The one thing that I am getting really pissed about is that she got really PISSED becuase I was asked to go and stay a few nights at Andrea's house. Because she just had a new baby, and she had a C-section and she already has a 1 yr old little boy. So, therefore I am going over to help her because she can't lift her baby