Feb 17, 2006 00:00
Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination and the long nights, and the stupid forgettable fights...And the friendships, and the calls to each other complaining about crushes. Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends, and the "I miss you's," the "I love you's," and the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing. Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes, and the skipping classes, and the studying for tests, and the pretending to study for tests..And the downright NOT studying for tests..I forgot..I forgot what school was all about. Somewhere between all the appointments and long drives, and small lies to parents. Breaking up and then making up, making plans then breaking plans. Appearing, disappearing, then reappearing...I forgot..I forgot what it was like to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy, and that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart. I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future. I forgot that you can't control falling in love, and you can't make yourself fall in love. I learned that I CAN love. I learned that it's okay to mess up, and it's okay to ask for help. And it's okay to feel like...bad. I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day. I learned that sometimes the things you want most in life, you just can't have. I learned that the greatest things about life aren't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups, it's the friendships, which means taking chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about. I've learned that time and love CAN heal all things; with the love and support of your friends--You survive. I've learned that when you start to feel bad about losing touch, those that you've lost touch with are feeling the same way. You NEED to know, people ARE going to talk, people WILL be immature, but you need to look past that because what they say and do don't matter. Live for you. I learned that calls from friends are the most important things, and that heart to heart conversations make you feel better. I learned that to love is to live, and there's so much to take for granted. I learned that lives can be taken quicker that we care to believe, dreams are broken faster than we think, and hope is shattered before it starts. I learned that broken hearts mend, tears dry, smiles fade, truth renounces, pain clears...And love, love will stay with you for good. Stupid high school relationships: 95% of the time, WON'T matter in a few months. I learned that most guys aren't worth crying for, but you've got your girls for life. I now know every little thing I've been through has made me that much stronger and braver. But, basically, I just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. So this is a thank-you to all my friends...For always being there. And even if we're not on good terms or have lost touch, I will always have unconditional love for you. And in the end....everything will be alright.