Less depressing thoughts
Dear Shayne,
I let out what I felt was weighing me down today at confession. I feel like this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship, and if God willing, something more. I am trying to accept whichever outcome is best for all of us. I say that because I want to have an open mind as to whom you end up with. I know what my morals and values are and I’ve been disregarding them for the past six years. That explains a lot of the suffering I’ve gone through. The moment I was too weak to say no to what went against what I stood for was the moment I took the difficult path in life. I really value your presence in my life and I feel that the only way to preserve it is to be apart, like you said, and keep away from temptation. I really want to keep you as a friend… not just any friend but a best friend. I have always been well aware that I try to please all but I never realized how it is bad for me. I have been too weak and insecure to realize that I’m important enough to want to please as well. What if what pleases others does not please me? What then? I need to find a balance.
One moment of temptation lead to a few minutes of gratification… but ultimately it leads to nothing substantial. I need to be strong in order to keep you in my life. I hope you feel the same. I’m not sure if you’re the one but I’m sure that doing the right thing will lead to happiness for the both of us.
I let out what I felt was weighing me down today at confession. I feel like this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship, and if God willing, something more. I am trying to accept whichever outcome is best for all of us. I say that because I want to have an open mind as to whom you end up with. I know what my morals and values are and I’ve been disregarding them for the past six years. That explains a lot of the suffering I’ve gone through. The moment I was too weak to say no to what went against what I stood for was the moment I took the difficult path in life. I really value your presence in my life and I feel that the only way to preserve it is to be apart, like you said, and keep away from temptation. I really want to keep you as a friend… not just any friend but a best friend. I have always been well aware that I try to please all but I never realized how it is bad for me. I have been too weak and insecure to realize that I’m important enough to want to please as well. What if what pleases others does not please me? What then? I need to find a balance.
One moment of temptation lead to a few minutes of gratification… but ultimately it leads to nothing substantial. I need to be strong in order to keep you in my life. I hope you feel the same. I’m not sure if you’re the one but I’m sure that doing the right thing will lead to happiness for the both of us.